I keep trying to reassure myself figuring all these things out in my head so I have some subtype theme of suicidal ocd and I had gotten this thought that what if I can’t live with my own thoughts and mental health for years and years to come and the only solution is to just end it all because no one should live with all these anxiousness feelings and thoughts that give them great distress well I got this thought two weeks ago and before that I was completely fine and happy in life after this thought it completely changed my mood and I’ve been thinking about it 24/7 like I know the thought is irrational but for some reason it feels real in my head like I think to myself why would I end my life for a ocd thought that says I can’t like with my ocd thoughts for years and years to come but initially before this thought came to my head two weeks ago I was completely fine so now out of no where this anxiety came and now everyday my thoughts keep saying the only way out is to hurt yourself to end the thought and feelings but I think to myself also what thoughts why am I thinking so irrational it makes no sense like why am i so Stuck on this thought it gave me a panic attack when I first got it 2 weeks ago and now it’s just stuck with me since I’m going to therapy now but I just started so I’m trying to see if anyone has any tips on why I might be having this maybe it’s because I care about my life so much that ocd is turning it around idk I’ve been seeing a lot of people overdose on drugs on social media lately and that’s what triggered me to get this thought because I thought to myself right when I saw something on the TikTok what if I can’t handle my ocd thoughts and mental health and I just lose my sanity and end up killing my self like one of these people that are on the news and maybe I have it worse then them and so you might as well end it because there’s no other option you can’t live with it and then I also think that’s so irrational so I’m in middle between these things and I’ve been having so much headaches and anxiety lately

Harm OCD

Zach C

Date posted: 3y

Like it’s almost like I’m thinking what if I can’t make it to the next day and I keep thinking each day what if it’s my last or what if I won’t make it to this certain date because your just in too much distress from this thought that it’s gonna pile up all stress and anxiety from this thought and soon your gonna hurt yourself it’s a scary feeling and it makes me want to just go back to how I was feeling 2 weeks ago before this thought

Jesse Miller

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

I’ve been here! I have suicidal OCD themes. I have thoughts pretty often that I should end my life. I think these thoughts especially get stuck when we’re very stressed. For some reason, I think for some people with OCD, when our life gets tough and more stressful, suicidal themes feel like they can latch on. I think it works pretty well, but the key is to learn to accept that you can have these thoughts and don’t need to lean into compulsions to get out of them. It sounds like they’re especially stuck because you’re trying to find some way out. It’s not easy and recovery in the beginning is super challenging, but it’s rewarding when you learn to accept your thoughts and not stay in the OCD cycle by giving into compulsions.

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