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I feel this same way a lot. Especially when I see things online that are like "for you it was a mistake but for me it was trauamtizing" and I worry any past action have hurt someone and I don't allow myself to move or eat or anything at all except feeling guilty. This is because I tell myself it was a mistake and everyone makes them and try to move on, but with OCD we get pushed and pulled at the same time to continue to feel guilt and do compulsions. I remind myself even if I don't get forgiven and I'm horrible, I need to take care of myself and appreciate what I do like. We feel guilt because we aren't that person anymore and changed.

Yes, It used to happen to me a lot, but my therapist told me 2 things that helped me so much 1. "Bad" people don't care if they hurt someone, they don't care that they are bad 2. We will always hurt people, we can't avoid that as much as we would like to Thats doesn't mean we will ruin everyones life hahaha that means that we can do small things like forgetting to answer a text or forgetting a birthday that can hurt someone important to us, but that doesn't mean we are bad, that makes us humans

Dealing with the same thing this week! Have had a year of therapy, really working on processing things and making lots of progress. Was already extremely stressed out because I’m moving and going to grad school so I couldnt handle my thoughts as well and just had a full on OCD meltdown. I spent hours crying to my mom, confessing things I did as a child that hurt people and then asking if I should be locked away because I’m so horrible. Was definitely using my current adult moral ruler/compass to judge and shame the child me that didn’t really understand everything. It’s tough out here trying to give yourself grace when your brain is hell bent on convincing you that you don’t deserve it