POCD

First of all, and I’m saying this with all the love in my heart, STOP WATCHING PORN!! Altogether!! Stop!! It alters your brain chemistry the same way a drug does; your brain starts to need crazier and crazier porn in order to even feel aroused. I 100% believe you that you would never hurt a child, but based on statistics this is exactly how people end up addicted to CP, or Child Sexual Abuse Material, which is the real term as that is truly what it is. So get out now!!! Porn is the worst thing for OCD!!! And second, if you meet with an OCD specialist, they absolutely will not call you a pedo. They get it, they know how this works! Any of the therapists on here would be super helpful and would in no way make you feel guiltier. But seriously, get out of watching porn. It’s so so bad for your brain!!! Always leads to obsessions and compulsions!!!

As Zealous said, porn is a horrible combination with OCD. It's recommended that you do stop watching it altogether. You mentioned that you watch more extreme videos but you would not want to act on them in reality. These sound like pornography induced fetishes which are usually caused with consistent porn use overtime. Zealous already explained the long term effects of what porn does to the brain. Your brain is desensitized to what you're watching, to the point where you'll need more extreme content to get the same feeling you did the first time watching. This will keep happening and happening because when it comes to the industry, there's basically a never ending demand for what can be found online. I remember seeing a documentary about porn with one part having a man taking about how he dived into child sexual abuse content mainly because of the rush he got with doing something as bad as that. I understand that there's people out there that are okay with their porn use and it brings them no problems, and I guess that's fine. I personally don't see any long term positives with the industry whatsoever. I also believe that deep down you'd never do something like this to a child, just like you wouldn't do any of the things you see acted out in the videos. For mental health sake, remove porn from your life. You haven't mentioned whether or not porn is a problem for you but I personally think your life will be much better without it. I'm still trying to kick all types of porn out of my life because I know that will help me. I hope all of this helps you. I also hope that Telegram website gets investigated because much like other adult sites, they have sexual abuse material on there. To no one's surprise. I really do hope all of this helps you out.