Please Help!!!!

I woke up from a dream about someone in my past and it’s saying that I like them and that I want to leave the boy that I am currently in a situations hip with. I’m not sure if we are in a labeled relationship but technically we are. My thoughts keep attaching to this person in the past and I woke up with immense anxiety because he was in my dream. I feel so guilty because my thoughts have been attached to this person for so long and I’m so scared that I’m just in denial. The guy I am currently in a situations gio with is soooo sweet, funny, and quirky but in a good way. I love talking to him and listening to him— we call almost every day. But I always get doubts about my feelings for him and I also get thoughts that tell me to go back to someone from my past. I don’t want to be associated with the person in my past but since I’m so hyperaware, I always correlate everything I do to that person because my thoughts are like “oh you don’t x, you like the other person” or “omg you’re listening to this song so it reminds me you of that person.” Help! I feel so bad and I always get thoughts about that person. I’m so scared.

Relationship OCD

Xconley23

Date posted: 3y

NO WAY,I thought I was the only one I get these thoughts about my ex all the time even with the music too it’s terrible,Ik I love my gf but it tells me I don’t and I still like my ex,jus know you not alone

starry duck

Date posted: 3y

He isn’t my ex but I guess someone I knew for a very long time and we were close. I probably had platonic or perhaps romantic feelings but I rlly don’t want to be associated with him. He was very toxic and controlling— he was nice and sweet to me sometimes but I really don’t want to be associated with him. Literally everything triggers me and reminds me of him so my brain goes down this crazy hectic path. I feel so guilty— I really hate this :/

starry duck

Date posted: 3y

@starry duck Just by saying he was nice and seeet to me triggered the hell out of me lol. I’m very exhausted. Just want to live my life freely :/

Xconley23

Date posted: 3y

@starry duck My ex was also very toxic and sometimes nice,maybe we all have our own events that has triggered our rocd

starry duck

Date posted: 3y

@Xconley23 My thoughts feel so real. I can’t even tell and I am so afraid but thank you so much for comforting me! Oh and I got triggered because of those tiktok destiny/ tarot card readings.

Xconley23

Date posted: 3y

@starry duck I don’t get triggered because of those but I DO get triggered by the girls on TikTok because when I find them attractive it tells me I’m cheating or unloyal

fangirlinee

Date posted: 12w

@Xconley23 It happened to you that if you have a memory or fantasy , do u feel like sadness or idk how to explain? Like sorrow idk 😔, feels so confused I have a new bf

Sum1ne

Date posted: 3y

Im sorry youre going through this. I wont reassure you, but know that dreams are out of your control.

starry duck

Date posted: 3y

I get anxious when I get thoughts about going back to the person in my past or like to leave my partner completely. I’m so scared because it’s been 7 months with these thoughts. I’ve had HOCD before and I don’t get as much sexual orientation thoughts but the ROCD ones are so scary. I feel so bad and guilty. I keep getting these urges to text that person from my past but I really don’t want to be associated with them as they made me so uncomfortable before. However, I keep getting the what if’s and they’re destroying me :(

starry duck

Date posted: 3y

I know reassurance is bad so you don’t have to reassure me but I feel like venting, sorry :/

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