Weird obsessions

Okay - I probably shouldn’t be doing this because it’s possibly seeking reassurance, but I really think I want to know out of curiosity. With my OCD I have subtypes that’s easy for my to list and explain, yet there is some feelings that I struggle with putting into words but I am going to try, so here we go. I used to love scary movies, especially all the classics, but now I can’t watch them. I also want to state that I was diagnosed with OCD at 12 and for the majority of my life since then, I never struggled until this past February when I accidentally ate a Delta 8 cookie that had a 150MG dose (keep in mind I’m not used to weed 🙃). I went into a panic attack and ever since I’ve been dealing with awful intrusive thoughts and anxiety. Anyway, one of my OCD quirks is I will think of Texas Chainsaw Massacre and start feeling anxious - (I know he’s not real). If I see a weird field or dirt road that resembles the ones in the movie, I get anxious and uncomfortable. It’s almost like I’m stuck in a scary movie inside my head. I am now super hyperaware of feelings. If I feel drowsy I start getting anxious and if I laugh to much I start getting worried. Last night my husband and I watched Avengers: End Game, and I was a WRECK and the end. I was crying and laughing (because of how ridiculous I looked) at the same time and then all of a sudden BAM! I got anxious and started thinking “omg is crying and laughing like this normal or am I going crazy). I literally feel like an emotional wreck 😅 Can anyone relate?

CaptainKierk...

Date posted: 2y ago

It’s actually very common with people I’ve talked to to start experiencing anxiety symptoms after an experience with substances and I’ve certainly heard of that happening with weed. I had obsessions before this, but I definitely became a lot more anxious in general after I drank an ungodly amount of caffeine one day. And for the most part, your mental health struggles as someone with OCD may not always be best explained with the standard subtypes or even the framing of everything as a fear of uncertainty. That’s okay though. The tools still work.

yourocdbestie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

oh my goodness i had the worst panic attack when i got too high by mistake!!! i felt like in unlocked new levels of OCD in me that i wasn’t aware existed. it was like someone handed a megaphone to all my intrusive thoughts lol. definitely took me a few months to fully recover from that experience — it was honestly traumatic!! losing control like that made me double down on efforts to control and monitor myself. be patient with yourself! ps i also lost my mind at the end of avengers endgame, how could anyone not?!

Allie_Ingles

Date posted: 2y ago

I am so glad I’m not the only one!! It truly was such a traumatic experience and it was so hard to get over! It’s almost as if my OCD was locked in a box and then bam, the edible was the key that unlocked it all 😅

Allie_Ingles

Date posted: 2y ago

I definitely spiraled after eating the cookie. Up until that point I had never consumed marijuana or been high, so I had a terrible reaction that threw my mental state out of wack. When it comes to subtypes I was usually able to classify my obsessions due to people naming them (schizophrenic OCD, harm OCD, etc). Yet, there definitely had been some that I was really unable to lump into a subtype - so it’s good to know it can’t always be easily explained.

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