Anyone else scared of SSRIS? I’ve read too many horror stories online that have made me terrified to take them.. plus I have suicide themed ocd and my biggest fear is them making me want to for real… I just don’t know how to get over this I’m just so tired of struggling and being stuck and letting these thoughts rule my life..

I understand your hesitation; generally SSRIs have fewer side effects than other, earlier forms of antidepressants, but it seems like in select situations SSRI side effects can pose more problems for quality of life. Unfortunately, it can be difficult to know if they are right for you until you begin taking them. A family friend of mine found no benefit and later developed a dependency, but an acquaintance brought up that his antidepressant was very effective at reducing his anxiety and that he wished he had started taking it sooner. I imagine a lot of the efficacy has to do with where the depression/anxiety is coming from. If you really have a lack of circulating serotonin in your brain, then a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI) may help with this. However, not everyone responds optimally...some develop dependencies and others experience side effects that make the benefits not worth it. It's for that reason that I almost always recommend therapy first, since it usually does not have side effects. For many individuals, medication is an absolutely critical part of their treatment, and there's nothing problematic about that. However, if you don't want to contend with potential side effects and you have the resources to pursue therapy, I would do that first and see how it goes - you can always start a regimen if it seems necessary.

I'm scared of them too. I don't want to have to deal with their side effects on top of everything else... I want to try everything else there is and leave medication as my last resort.. I finally went to see a psychotherapist recently and explicitly told her I don't want meds for my anxiety and OCD but rather ERP or atleast tips regarding lifestyle or supplements or smth.. And it's like she didn't even hear me and prescribed meds anyways. I was pretty frustrated.

As someone who is currently on them it helped me lots! I tried going down on dosage and it was way too hard and my ocd got really bad so I went back up. I do notice some side affects but for me it’s worth it! My side affects are I sweat really easily, get sick if I don’t drink water with it(almost throwing up), and I my throat gets dry quickly! The worst part is going off of it. I felt like crap while just lowering the dosage(missed work a few days), as well as bad anxiety! The medicine helped me be able to live a functioning life!