Have u experienced this?

How do you differentiate between knowing its not how you feel and feeling it's actually true? It feels so real...

@Sero82 Good question! It is really hard and I really do struggle with thoughts and reality, but we can have a really good day together and he really looks after me and cares about me and I feel completely different! So it makes me think all these thoughts I have and what I THINK I feel is just OCD! Honestly two weeks ago I was telling him I didn’t love him anymore and all sorts put him through so many emotions! X

@Kasey2001 What if you don’t have days where you feel relief anymore it’s just constantly those feelings

@Kasey2001 That's a really good way to differentiate! It's generally very confusing and I relate to the "love" comment turmoil except my issue is I struggle to have ever felt it because it just feels like so much emotional numbness all the time!

@Sero82 Same here. And now it really feels like I want to break up and it’s making me sad and I’m doing compulsions but it’s like I believe it and don’t believe it’s ocd anymore. I’ve been dealing with it for a year and it feels like for the past 2 weeks I’ve been just on the verge of doing it or accepting that I want to and it makes me sick to my stomach

@cozymushroom The only time I ever felt so free and so strong and confident in my feelings for my boyfriend was when I got pushed over the edge by my thoughts and feelings and actually broke up with him. This was before I knew what was putting me in such distressful turmoil and the regret I felt afterwards was so raw and I got him back 26 minutes later lmao. I don't want to reassure you but the fact that it does make you sick to your stomach is a way that shows you OCD is present and is the driving force behind the thoughts that are making you do something you don't want to.

@Sero82 I can agree to this! I’ve threatened our relationship so many times that I force myself to be less impulsive/less trusting of those feelings telling me to end it because I know I will immediately regret it. Luckily my partner has seen my cycle several times and has been very patient with me.

@cozymushroom Is there someone you can voice these concerns to that has some insight into your relationship? Friends, family, therapist? I know it can be even more painful when there’s no one you can share with. I repressed my fears for a long time and I just recently started being more honest about them. This app has helped a lot as I feel very similar to so many people including you.

@cozymushroom Hm if you don’t have days where you feel relief anymore and it’s always those feelings then I would write down the pros and cons of your relationship and really reflect on it.. maybe spend some time apart and see how you feel then! It’s such a hard one isn’t it because you don’t know if it’s thoughts or real, I would really recommend speaking to your partner about it and having a conversation and let him know how your feeling! X

@Kasey2001 At the same time, it is normal to begin to feel numbness. When you reach emotional exhaustion, you just give out.

@Sero82 That is definitely true, give it some time and be kind to yourself!

Yeah, I struggle with second hand embarrassment but that doesn't really help when mixing rocd into it and pushing my stressors on to him.

@Sero82 Yes this is me!

@Mia Ash gosh i’ve never related to something more. it’s something i’ve brought up with my girlfriend as well, trying to just let her be.

@OneKidneyWonder Glad I’m not alone!