Im not sure

So i have to sleep on the sofa bed with my friend but the thing is in the room im in theres a knife in the sink and im sorta terrified that i could hurt someone with it and its just the fact that its there and on show that bothers me. I dont know whether i should move it so its out of sight out of mind or whether this would help my ocd?? I dont know what to do. I dont want to hurt anyone but ocd feels so real im scared i might because its so easilt accessible or what if i sleep walk?? Im so stressed

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Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

This one's up to you and what you think you can do at the point you're at. We don't know as much about where you're at as you or your therapist does (assuming you have one at the moment). If you're not quite ready for this exposure then you could move it and start with something else, like Spring05 said. But it also could help you to leave it if you're ready to. Whatever you decide, try not to worry about your decision. Worrying won't help much anyway :)

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

And like 33knowme2 said, it might also help to talk and/or find something fun to do.

Username: PrivacyyyxPrivacyyyx

Date posted: 2y ago

Thank youu

Username: Spring05Spring05

Date posted: 2y ago

I used to have this same fear. Talk to a therapist about the best incremental plan to increase your exposure to your fear thoughts about it. Later, they might have you practice being in the same room as the knife or holding it. I worked up to this. My therapist eventually had me go out to dinner where there was a knife. Was incredibly uncomfortable but worked through this. At some point i just didn't even give a darn anymore about knives, and it's not even in my field of awareness and i usually don't care anymore about those thoughts when they pop up from time to time. Haha.

Username: Spring05Spring05

Date posted: 2y ago

They usually start with a mental exposure instead of "in vivo" exposure. Like even just writing out the violent thought. Or playing it on a loop tape. It's uncomfortable but you will be able to get through it.

Username: Love 777Love 777

Date posted: 2y ago

@Spring05 Sounds like it makes it worse . Loop tape ? Naw im good .

Username: Spring05Spring05

Date posted: 2y ago

@Love 777 Right that's a good point. It's just my experience with ERP. Each person should consult their own professional. And yes side note indeed--For me exposure to the violent thought spiked my anxiety quite high at the start, then it decreased really well until the thoughts basically went away. Still, the point stands that my experience isn't everyone's-- different strokes for different folks, as they say.

Username: PrivacyyyxPrivacyyyx

Date posted: 2y ago

I hope to get to that point where i can be in the same room as one and im not bothered in the slightest. That would be a huge milestone for me.

Username: Love 777Love 777

Date posted: 2y ago

Just know there is consequences to your actions . Stop arguing with the thoughts . Just Dont act upon them simple . Dont worry i have harm ocd too . Just stay away from drugs or alcohol .

Username: Love 777Love 777

Date posted: 2y ago

Keep in mind your not the only one with these thoughts . Remind yourself . Just do not act upon them . Focus your attention on positive things .

Username: PrivacyyyxPrivacyyyx

Date posted: 2y ago

easily*

Username: MissLovely

Date posted: 5y ago

Someone reply ? I am absolutely shattered, my whole body aches, maybe I got an hour sleep if I was lucky, but don't remember sleeping at all. It's clear to me that I can not sleep round anyone's house but my own. I slept at a friend's because of my pocd because I'm so scared of my head. I told my cousin about my intrusive thoughts whilst a bit drunk last night by text, I said I had to stay at a friend's but I lied and changed my ocd into a different thing. Because it was clear to me that she wondered why I avoid my nephew. So I said I was worried I'd throw him out the window. Cause of course I couldn't say I'm worried everyone will think I'm a pedo cause I think I look shifty in the face around kids. And she said why are you worried about throwing him out the window he is just a little boy. Well of course that made me feel absolutely shit, and now I'm worried she'll tell everyone. I made it clear that I'd never act on the thoughts and she said oh I get it. But she might tell people in the family. And then everyone will think I'm horrible. Someone help. Also anyone know how I can make myself sleep when I get home when he has hopefully gone home? Also I feel so bad about not staying because he begged me to stay ?

Username: Privacyyyx

Date posted: 2y ago

Am i doing this right?

I have avoided knives for two years since i first started having ocd thoughts. I have only just educated myself on ocd and ive learned all about erp and stuff but i feel terrified whenever im near knives and today my mum wanted me to wash up and there was a knife in the sink and i was so scared, i didnt want to touch it or look at it and it made me want to run away i was so scared that id hurt someone and when i picked it up i felt like i was going to hurt someone and it’s terrifying i dont want to be like this. Is it right that i put myself in positions were im around knives? Like should i be avoiding them? I feel better when i avoid them but im starting to think its not the right thing to do.

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Username: Ocdlife123

Date posted: 1y ago

Please help or advice

Everytime i listen to someones harm ocd story they always say they would avoid knifes or avoid driving or avoid being around certain people/places objects to MAKE SURE this intrusive obsession does not happen! I don’t avoid!! I still have to be around my animal, i still cook with knifes even though it really feels like im about to do it! I still keep the things in my house that im thinking of using for harm ( objects ect) I really dont understand why im not avoiding these things to make sure it doesn’t happen if i get the feeling or truly believe i could do it im about to do it! Please advice i just feel like i must deep down want to do it if im not preventing it from happening in anyway! I feel like i have no compulsions so this cant be ocd

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