BMC
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- 3y
ROCD & Sadness
The intrusive thoughts aren’t even causing that much anxiety now I’m just getting extremely sad that I’m still going through this a year into my relationship
EM77EM77
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- 3y
Same here! I’m feeling anxious about it today but most of the time now it’s just sadness. It always feels like a “deep knowing” or “gut feeling” that I need to leave which I’m ignoring. I’m also experiencing this a year into my relationship after experiencing it from the beginning. I thought I’d be over it and confident in my feelings by now. I feel guilty because I feel like I’m leading him on
Sero82Sero82
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- 3y
3 years into mine, I don't even know how long I've had it just realized it a year ago.
dragon_calvesdragon_calves
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- Date posted
- 3y
I have been with my now husband for 10 years, since the beginning I have had ROCD. I’ll tell you that the ROCD comes and goes (as do other themes). There are times when you don’t doubt at all and times when you doubt everything. Granted, I have never finished treatment, so it didn’t have to be this way. I’m trying to do better with this because my ROCD is so bad right now. And I think that feeling that we are just fooling ourselves is part of ROCD. At least that is the way I look at it because I don’t think non-OCD people have such massive anxiety about these things, but I could be wrong. Regardless of whether we are fooling ourselves, most of us can acknowledge that there are wonderful moments in our relationships and that the human we are with can’t be a waste of time or a regret.
dragon_calvesdragon_calves
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- Date posted
- 3y
But the sadness makes a lot of sense. It is almost like grieving having a normal relationship with the anxiety.
BMCBMC
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- 3y
I completely understand - it’s like I am armed with all the knowledge and the facts about what it truly is but can’t help feeling upset which then translates to ‘I’m not happy’ to ‘I’m not happy in this relationship’ and the spiral continues
EM77EM77
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- 3y
Totally relate. I know it feels like OCD/anxiety because the thoughts feel “sticky” and I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m scared I’ll never feel happy and confident in my relationship and I’ll always doubt
dragon_calvesdragon_calves
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- 3y
@EM77 Yup, I know the fear well! I think part of treatment is letting go of the “happy” thing and just letting it be. Because you can’t be happy if you are obsessed with feeling happy.
BMCBMC
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- 3y
I just feel like I know I could be happier without him (because I’d be free on the constant intrusive thoughts) but that just seems like such a sad option but why am I putting myself through this
dragon_calvesdragon_calves
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- Date posted
- 3y
Yeah, I think it goes back to what you value in life. If that is having no romantic relationships then sure let OCD win. But OCD tries to rob people from having a meaningful life and that is why just giving in isn’t always the way.
dragon_calvesdragon_calves
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- 3y
@dragon_calves And take it from me, if it isn’t ROCD bothering you, it is another theme :/
MaedayMaeday
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- 3y
I can relate. It seems like ROCD is my only theme, so if I decided to be single, it would all go away right? IDK. It's tempting though. I feel like if my husband died or we got divorced, I'd never date again. Not that I'd want to be alone, but I have been wanting peace for so long now. Maybe I'd get some. Maybe that's letting OCD win...
dragon_calvesdragon_calves
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- 3y
@Maeday I also feel like I’d never date again! But it would be letting my ocd win…
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