Say101

Date posted: 3y

Tricks that don't end

When you are trying to trick the ocd, the ocd tricks u back 4 folds .I ,think I wanted to force myself to like the thoughts so that the ocd disappears ......but I felt I really liked it & although I made this disgusting face,my own voice which I rely on(this voice judges was is true & wat is fake usually) said but u like the feeling inside.....after few seconds I became anxious .....now I don't know whether I said I liked it cuz the opposite feeling would come or cuz I really liked it ........is this erp or checking........

Sexual Orientation OCD

Say101

Date posted: 3y

True, I will give my best

Say101

Date posted: 3y

I just wanted to know during erp if we like the thoughts wat should we do.....not to panic afterwards

Anon11230

Date posted: 3y

Is liking the thoughts ocd ?

Say101

Date posted: 3y

I don't know...... earlier I could say with confidence that I don't like the thoughts,now since the anxiety is little...I don't know anymore.......it is like I am not liking, liking the thoughts.......I don't know whether I liked the thoughts or the ocd tricking especially during the movement..... After that phase over I again feel no it is not probably true?.......r u saying this is not ocd

Anon11230

Date posted: 3y

I’m not sure I’m just questioning at what point is it denial vs ocd

pacient 1

Date posted: 3y

@Anon11230 Idk if Im giving a good example but denial is like not admitting the truth that you already know , you may be asked if for example you have a crush on this girl which you genuinely have and not admit it.

Say101

Date posted: 3y

I don't know......only thing is I never had this before ocd .......& I am 29 years old

Say101

Date posted: 3y

@Say101 This is killing me since 2021 April, during the lockdown

Say101

Date posted: 3y

@pacient 1 Admitting meaning.....to myself or others.......& Wat if I myself am not sure but getting doubts that is this denail......cuz some times I feel this is all nonsense but other times I feel this is real.....& When I think it is nonsense my thoughts say but during the thoughts came u felt real so that is true and this is falls

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

anxiety can cause arousal if your focusing on a certain part of your body if that’s what you mean. forcing yourself to like the thoughts is a compulsion that’s only making u worse

Say101

Date posted: 3y

Oo really,but earlier when I used to force to like the thoughts the thoughts would disappear. or I would realise I don't like them ......but now it is backfiring........so, how should I approach an ERP

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

@Say101 what I will do is when I get a thought I will be like “maybe maybe not your trapped in never knowing” then try to feel the anxiety and it will get bad but then alot better after a few minutes

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

@Say101 it seems like telling your self I do like the thoughts was anxiety inducing at first but over time you started to realize would get rid of the anxiety so it morphed from an exposure to compulsion

Say101

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous Can it take few seconds to realise that it is intrusive thoughts

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

@Say101 wdym

Say101

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous I automatically fearout or scream saying stop after few seconds no matter what.....at this time do I need to restart the erp process till I don't feel anxious or just say what ever and move on

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

@Say101 you need to stop trying to avoid the thoughts and become comfterble w the uncertainty of the thoughts if that makes sense. like maybe you are gay maybe your not there’s no way to find out

Say101

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous Ok.....but hw will I be confident with my girl if I live in uncertainty

Say101

Date posted: 3y

@Say101 But,I will try my best......any way thank you very very much for being so patient with me & helping me......ur r a great person...... thank u once again

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

@Say101 how will you stop living with anxiety if u don’t live in uncertainty🤷‍♀️

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