1517614552652959755 And to many of them it doesn't exist and it is simply a fucked excuse to hide my true evil nature. are they wrong though? I mean. I didn't even get a diagnosis, so who am I to say I have this invisible disorder? I don't even believe that I'm not a monster. Everyday I hate myself. the reality of things is that this mental disorder exists only for those who suffer from it, for regular ordinary people it's just non sense, and for them it's your fault for having these kind of thoughts. "just don't think them" or "if you didn't like these thoughts than you wouldn't them" that's what the average person would say. I wish I could put this in better words.

Matt Walsh vs "non-binary couple" Intense debate....See till the end 🙈🙈

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JB1020

Date posted: 3y

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. You're not a monster. I see why you made a connection to this video and you make some great points about how it's difficult to understand certain things if you haven't experienced them and about how people are turned off by what they don't understand. In some ways I don't think the video applies however as I think Walsh has a good fundamental point - that many non-binary/trans advocates don't have real working definitions of the terms they use, which is dangerous. But I think you make good points. Best of luck to you.

ivefailed.

Date posted: 3y

thanks for the kind words. The thing is that it sucks feeling as if your own mental disorder doesn't exist because it isn't recognized by most people. It's not like most mental disorders that can be accepted by the mass like clinical depression, adhd etc... (i don't want to invalidate them). I mean just look at the name of this disorder "pocd', it has even that horrifying word in it, it unintentionally ties us with those monsters. The fun thing is that I essentialy believe all of the things that those people say as I hate it myself in the first place. I can't cohexist with this. I feel wrong, defective, disgusting and i dont deserve happiness or to live. I accepted the fact that I'm a monster but I reject it at the same time. I'm too far gone. I wouldn't wish this to the worst person on earth. I'm living inside a body that wants to kill itself.

ivefailed.

Date posted: 3y

I wasn't able to properly express my feelings, sorry for that. I wish I could have done a better job with the phrasing. I feel pretty disappointed because I wasn't able to get the main point across.

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