I engaged in a conversation with my friend about a ton of bodily sensations and awareness. She doesn’t know that I have ocd so it was pretty rough. Honestly I’m kind of panicky right now because she talked about things that even I have never thought about. Idk how to calm myself without further engaging in compulsions.
Hi valley, It sounds like you had a really tough conversation with a friend and were willing to stay with a big trigger, well done! It sounds like your friend spoke freely without knowing your obsessive fears, and that's something that could happen at any time, anywhere. Just because she talked about things you hadn't thought about doesn't mean you have new, true, dangers. You don't need to do compulsions to calm down, you can tolerate the anxiety that came up without doing anything to make it better. Give yourself some space to sit with your discomfort and the high likelihood that it will reduce if you don't keep feeding (or fighting) it. I encourage you to share this spontaneous experience with your therapist so you can work through it with some guidance. Best wishes!
