Magzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
I can’t do this
I can’t deal with the real event ocd guilt. I just can’t. It doesn’t matter what I do it bothers me every single day 💔
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- 3y
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MagzzzMagzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you I just hope I’m not the exception. That it’s not the worst. I was young and didn’t know I was even making a mistake at the time and it wasn’t the intention at the time either whatsoever. I just feel so horrible and stupid for being so dumb a few years ago. I would change everything if it was possible. I absolutely hate myself and your right we are our own worst judges. You’d think even after telling people everything and them telling me to forgive myself and move on would be enough but apparently not. I just feel so stuck in this horrible hell in my mind and there’s nothing I can do about it. I really appreciate the encouragement though. Maybe I’m just having a moment I don’t know but I’ve been having them a lot
MagzzzMagzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
@redcushion Absolutely I would never do it again knowing what I know now. I just wish I knew better then. Anyways you’re right. It’s probably just ocd drawing it out worse than it needs to be right now. I had one drink tonight too which definitely could have made it worse also. Thank you for helping me I appreciate it
seagull2seagull2
- Date posted
- 3y
I needed this, thank you
Brian :)Brian :)
- Date posted
- 3y
You will get thru this! I been there and I know you may feel diffent because our stories don’t match , but just know a lot of people are going thru similar things . I once thought I wouldn’t recover from this theme but I did
MagzzzMagzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
@Brian :) That’s great to hear. I hope one day I will be ok again unfortunately right now I wish I could have answers but I can’t. That’s not how it works. I’m just constantly terrified every second of everyday and I’m so drained
EnyaEnya
- Date posted
- 3y
I'm sorry, that you are struggling so much, but here is one thing that gives me hope, not only for myself, but for ever other OCD sufferer. Till the middle of last year, I couldn't stop myself from doing compulsions for my MT OCD, I had been scared that, if I don't do them something horrible would happen. But after I started ERP last year and I kept resisting my compulsions, I barely see my MT OCD thoughts and me not doing compulsions as dangerous. I therefore hope, that after successfully starting ERP against POCD, I also will realize, that nothing has happened in the past (False Memory OCD regarding POCD topics) and that my POCD is only thoughts and has no meaning.
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