Hailey24

Date posted: 3y

After 6 weeks of Therapy. Rocd still blows

I feel numb as to be expected. Idk what to do. Should I have expected to feel love towards my partner again at this point? I feel like I’m just uninterested in him. It makes me really scared. I am so lost without the obsession of if he likes me enough or something I don’t even know what I’m missing. We’ve been together 2 years this started to get super bad 4 months ago. When I say that I mean it changed from am I good enough to am I in love with him still.

Relationship OCD

hgreen2017

Date posted: 3y

Be easy on yourself, there is no time limit for these feelings. All I can say is that everyone in relationships wonders “am I good enough” or “do I still love him”. Those are insecurities and doubts, but the OCD is obsessing over it. In a way, it is normal to doubt and have insecurities. Just give yourself credit for little victories in your life and treatment, and don’t stress about how long it has been.

Hailey24

Date posted: 3y

What is OCD and what is not? I feel like completely disconnected from our relationship and I feel like I don’t know who he is. Like everything good about our relationship is unreachable for me because I don’t feel right. It’s such a weird feeling. The thing is I’m beginning to accept the uncertainty but the confusion isn’t going away, I still feel like I can’t connect with him. It’s very sad because I used to be so happy. Nothing about our relationship has changed exept for he is nicer and more thoughtful than ever. Do I need someone to be mean to me? I don’t think so but it’s very confusing.

Sam38373

Date posted: 3y

I have been with my Boyf for 2 years rocd stared year and a half ago he gets them thoughts also best way his therapist explained it was one of ur depressed and burnt out from this u won’t feel love for anyone or anything and 2 since ur ocd is aimed at him the most 2 feelings ur body allows u to feel for him is fear and anxiety so it dosent leave any room for intense love feelings I know it’s hard but try not to focus on feelings love is a choice

ARG20

Date posted: 3y

@Sam38373 Thank you for this! I really needed to hear this! Vulnerable question but is your bf going to therapy for ROCD and depression? Also I do wonder to myself if I have a mild case of depression?🤷🏽‍♀️

Sam38373

Date posted: 3y

@ARG20 Just try not to look for reassurance! That’s okay and yes he has been for 6 months in the uk cbt but it was cut short so currently waiting to go to an ocd unit which is private for erp therapy , it would make sense if u was slightly depressed it’s exhausting ocd is as all we have to go of in life is feelings and thoughts but ocd lies and messes up peoples with ocd and constantly being at fight with urself and thoughts so it’s not uncommon for someone to have both ocd and depression. Just practice self care and doing things that u enjoy hobby wise that’ll help depression and for ocd are u going to therapy or trying any medication?

Sam38373

Date posted: 3y

@Sam38373 Sorry just seen that you’re at therapy now lol, keep going ! WhT sort of therapy are u doing ?

ARG20

Date posted: 3y

@Sam38373 I’m actually in no therapy or medication… I’ve recently discovered ROCD! But I really need to do therapy but it’s scary to me and very vulnerable

Sam38373

Date posted: 3y

@ARG20 The sooner u do it the better before ocd becomes so stuck and drilled in you need to identify what obsessions your doing and to not do them as it makes ur ocd way worse it’s not something that goes away on it’s own have u been told u have ocd by a doctor or anyone xx

Sam38373

Date posted: 3y

@ARG20 Also notbing to be scared of I was the one to get my boyfriend therapy sometimes people just need to be pushed into it for the better but honestly it’s the best thing!it really does hell

Sam38373

Date posted: 3y

@ARG20 Help

ARG20

Date posted: 3y

@Sam38373 I’ve never been diagnosed but I do have a lot of the symptoms of ROCD… and thank you!

Hailey24

Date posted: 3y

The thing is I am happy doing my art and I feel like I want to do that all the time so it’s confusing. I don’t feel love for anyone that much Idk I feel like I just don’t know who he is right now. Like my idea of who he is to me is just completely gone. All of this is just very confusing.

Sam38373

Date posted: 3y

I’d suggest getting booked into therapy but make sure it’s someone with right qualifications for cbt erp ect because anyone can say they’re a therapist x

ARG20

Date posted: 3y

Thank you! And that’s true!

faye1010

Date posted: 24w

ROCD

Good morning everyone, I need some opinions or help on what people might think is wrong. March 2024 is when I started questioning everything about my relationship for no reason he is everything that I wanted, but my mind is trying to tell me that it isn't April 2024 was probably one of the worst times of my life I stayed home from work because I was constantly crying and totally sick because I didn't know what to do. The thoughts slowly started to not bother me as much. I feel like since it ever started I never have gotten that. Love feeling back for my boyfriend, but I want it back so bad because when I did have it, it was absolutely amazing. I have no desire to kiss him or be intimate with him either which also scares me fast-forward to today. I am waking up with so many doubts in questioning myself. Is this ever gonna go away or am I ever gonna feel that love back for my boyfriend ever again? I feel like I'm wasting his time and my time because it feels never ending. I went to a therapist shortly after starting to deal with this and she didn't really seem to help so now on Wednesday I have a new therapist that specializes in OCD I think does anyone have any advice? Thank you so much in advance.

Mariabae

Date posted: 23w

scary rocd

Lately, I’ve been feeling like my relationship isn’t real. I keep thinking: • Why am I even with him? • Do I actually like him, or am I just used to him? • What if I’m just convincing myself that I like him? I feel numb, disconnected, and nothing I tell myself reassures me. Sometimes, I get really irritable when we talk, I don’t feel joy, and I start overanalyzing everything. It makes me feel like the absolute truth is that I don’t like him, and I’m just in denial. I also heard that when you don’t like someone, there’s no anxiety—just relief. But I have moments where the thought “I don’t want to be with him” crosses my mind, and I don’t feel anything at all. And because I don’t panic immediately, I start thinking “Maybe this means it’s true.” I’ve read that love isn’t about feeling excitement 24/7, but my mind keeps telling me that if I don’t feel connected, if I have to search for reasons why I like him, that must mean I don’t. I feel like I’m losing touch with my emotions, and no matter what I do, I can’t seem to feel love or happiness the way I used to. It’s like I keep waiting for some proof that I truly want to be with him, but I never find it. Has anyone else felt this way? I feel like I’m trapped in this endless doubt, and I don’t know what’s real anymore.

Mariabae

Date posted: 13w

i need help, i dont know what is happening

I believe I have ROCD — at least, that’s what many people here have told me based on what I’ve shared — and I really need help, because I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I don’t know what’s real. My thoughts come as loud, cold statements — not questions. They say things like: “Nothing is the same.” “You don’t love him.” “You’re just staying because you’re used to him.” And even though I know I’m supposed to let the thoughts pass and not engage with them — I can’t. I get stuck in them. I try to find answers, I ruminate, I check, I cry, I panic. Everyone says “love isn’t just a feeling” — and I know that. But… I still want to feel something. I want to feel warmth, or connection, or even just peace. It’s been so long since I felt anything like that. Now everything just feels empty or terrifying or cold. My brain only gives me negative interpretations. No memory brings me comfort anymore. Nothing feels like it used to. And the worst part is — it all feels true. Sometimes I think: “What if I’m just denying the truth?” “What if I’ve finally realized that I don’t love him, and I just don’t want to admit it?” This feels like the worst version of myself. I’m so confused and scared and tired. Even therapy didn’t help — my therapist said things that made it worse, and now I don’t know who or what to believe anymore. I just want help. I want to know how to face ROCD — if that’s what this really is. I want to believe I can feel love again. I don’t want to lose myself in this forever. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you start to get better? i cant even remember past good memories with him, my head tells me that i didnt love him and i was just “excited “ to have someone. We have 2 years together and i have been dealing with this for a year and a half.

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