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- 3y
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- 3y
That is the worst—folks assuming everything we worry about is just OCD. Ugh. I have roaches too and it is so gross.
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- 3y
Yes! After my last severe bout of ocd i feel like my parents dont take anything i say seriously. At all. Now im in my head questioning if im overreacting and I am being obsessive but ive had others tell me its an alarming rate the amount we have in the house. They were even on the stove! I also have contamination ocd so im just petrified in fear like that my clothes have roaches and my bed has roaches. I feel stuck 😭. Im sorry you’re going through the same.. were you fourtunate enough to call an exterminator?
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- Date posted
- 3y
@Coul.C I would focus on taking reasonable measures. So maybe spraying and cleaning 1x/day. I’m in an apartment, so luckily management will take care of it!
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- 3y
I have been helping my gf go to war with roaches at her apartment and i’ve been a bit scared of developing an obsession through it 😅. Are you living with your parents/a parent? Is there opportunity to take your own measures about the problem?
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- 3y
Oh man ur a good bf. I definitely feel paranoid at night thinking they could be crawling on me. I dont have the money to afford an exterminator as i am a recent college grad and am looking for a job. So besides spraying and getting bait traps not much… have you had any luck?
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- 3y
@Coul.C But yes living with my parents
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- 3y
@Coul.C So far, so good. there still may be more to go for us, but we’re probably going to wait and see if things become a problem again. The problem areas for her apartment are mainly kitchen and bathroom, near water sources, so part of her nightly routine now is to make sure the sinks and shower are dry and to pour bleach down the drains. She also sprays the sink with a mixture of bleach and water (do not use an ammonia based disinfectant if you pour bleach down the drains ofc). Taking the trash out frequently is also recommended (every night preferably but it doesn’t have to be every night, just make sure food goes out). Anyway, the point is to remove sources of moisture and decomposing organic matter. Just make sure things are dry and clean of food scraps. Having the place be uncluttered is good too. If you want to keep them out of your room, you might try keeping it cold. If you don’t want to raise your electric bill, you can cover the windows with blankets and see what that does. My gf’s roommate does this and his room feels like a refrigerator. Supposedly the roaches don’t really go there (though he also has good aim with a rubber band and uses that to kill them frequently— i’m not even kidding). When you do the dishes, put them away (no drying rack if you wash them by hand) and make sure they are fully dry when you do so. The roach traps are good. Roaches are cannibals so if you leave the dead ones in the trap you’ll have more luck. Roach cookies (boric acid tablets with some kind of lure; you can make them yourself with boric acid, shortening and sugar i think, but also Harris’ Famous Roach Tablets is what we use) can also help. However, be careful where you place these bc you do not want a human or animal to swallow them. There’s also insect growth regulator, which is basically roach birth control… we have not tried to use this. We might end up doing so, but as far as I can tell my gf’s roach problem is worse than yours, so you may not have to resort to this. And we have our eye on some roach gels but we’re going to wait and see. There’s another thing which you might want to weigh the pros and cons of: caulking up, or duct taping gaps in the house. My gf’s apartment is horrible with these gaps bc it was poorly made and also very old so the wood has warped. Exterminators don’t always like not being able to access the gaps bc it prevents them from being able to spray or put baits in the gaps, so you might try spraying there first. However, it will prevent more of them from getting into the main area of the house and you can have traps set up there if they do. I should note that the apartment complex does have a bug guy, but everything he does (spraying the apartment every month, placing traps, sprinking roach bait in cracks and corners) is probably all stuff you can do and are doing. There are some other measures we took or plan to take if things get worse that maybe your parents would not really be on board with if they don’t see the problem as bad and think you are obsessing. I don’t know where the problem areas are for your house so I’m not sure whether or not you’d even need them. It’s also worth dealing with your anxiety on this matter as well. Sitting with the contamination fears, the disgust, the creepy-crawlies. Where I live (the deep dirty south), we get big ol buff roaches which are uglier and trigger more disgust/fear in me but aren’t as much of a contamination threat and respond pretty quickly to a can of raid. They are mostly harmless but I have seen ones so big I could literally hear their footsteps lol. I actually would look at pictures of these as an exposure. Ultimately, I’ve developed an appreciation for them as animals, even if I’d rather them be animals outside than in my house lol. Still working on it though.
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- 3y
@CaptainKierkegaard Really and truly thank your for this. It turns out i have carpet beetles as well ( i was inspecting for cockroach larvae or remenants) and it explains alot of symptoms ive been having that i wanted to go to the doctor for… its pretty bad. Since I’ve had this for atleast a year. Boric acid seems to work in both instances. Im just at a loss. I feel dirty and idk what to do as it is actually literally impacting my health… i do live in the south as well. I will take all your tips and try and do this. Im kinda scared. Its been harder to breathe and i was about to go to the doctors about this but turns out this can be a side effect of their presence. It sucks that I can’t even talk to my parents about this. I want to just burn all my clothes and move out lol…
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- 3y
@Coul.C There might just be a lot of dust too (which may attract the carpet beetles). Give your room a good vacuum (under the bed if possible) and thorough dusting and it will feel a lot better. The desire to burn everything is understandable, but I will say this: you can’t just say “it’s a valid fear” and then let your anxiety run wild. Within reason, do what you can, but exercize those ERP skills at the same time. Anyway, hope some of these suggestions work.
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- 3y
@CaptainKierkegaard I looked under my bed holy cow so much dust lol. And you’re right as im typing this im sitting downstairs since i dont want to sleep at night due to cockroaches being more active and i keep the room too freezing for me to sleep in lol. I will say i do have asthma and my breathing feels better not being in the room. I know ocd can cause my perception to change though so idk. I appreciate all your kind words though. Youre a kind person to talk me through this and give me suggestions that also keep into account my ocd. Im re reading the earlier comment as ive calmed down a bit and it may be good to invest in some rubberband aim training lol. Our house has 3 floors and many rooms so duct taping it will be a bit of a project the issue really seems to be my room/the upstairs bathroom etc. (the basement is always carrying a few but no one goes down there so idk) my room is above the garage and connected to the attic idk. Ive heard some ppl say that could be a cause and others say it doesn’t matter. Touching on the anxiety when i think of them as you know from a biological standpoint im like oh ok these are kinda interesting but id like them to stay interesting oustide of my house lmao.
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- Date posted
- 18w
My ocd has been at an extreme all time high the past 2 weeks and I am in dire need of some relief. I’m not sleeping right anymore. for context: I live in the south and found a springtail on my sheets about 2 weeks ago. This was like 2 days before our bug guy came and sprayed (it’s a normal maintenance thing here) so it’s a common bug down here and I’ve found them all over different areas of the house before. Finding it in my bed sent me on a bit of a spiral bc I started to doubt if it even was a springtail and that i was wrong and that it was a bed bug, not trusting my brain. It was a bad, sleepless night and carried over continuing feelings. Typical ocd stuff. Well two days later, I’m a nurse and I had a patient that actually had bed bugs. This wasn’t the first day they were here and I did not see any myself but it still freaked me out. There had one 2 founds after visitors came the day before. Of course I wore PPE in the room (coveralls shoe covers and hair net) going in and took everything off before exiting the room. When I came home I stripped in my garage and bagged everything down to my shoes. Threw everything in the wash and did multiple cycles. There were no other steps I could take but I still had a terrible night. Hours of ruminating and going back and forth about tracing my tracks, thinking of new ways I could’ve taken one home with me. Just checking everything. I was already on a spiral from the springtail. Having two such back to back triggering events for me so closely related has made me deteriorate significantly. I was already doing bad with my normal OCD and starting therapy here. I obsess over the thought of having bedbugs constantly and haven’t been able to sleep. I am constantly checking my bed while in it and can’t settle down. My bed is heavy too and I keep hurting myself lifting my mattress to check. But I need to check. I’ve become obsessed. I check everything and go down Reddit rabbit holes looking for new things. And of course, I talk myself into it every time. I can’t take it anymore, it’s bleeding off into other parts of my life like friendship and marriage because I am so high anxiety right now. I need relief so bad. I’ve never felt this unstable to be honest. I feel like even someone without ocd would be really struggling with this topic, nevermind me, with ocd to a point where I just started treatment. These aren’t even my normal intrusive thoughts and compulsive acts. It’s just taken on a life in the last week and I can’t find any sign that it’s going to slow down. when I think rationally I know I did everything right to prevent but I can’t shake it. 💔
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- 11w
Also Im sorry for posting so much about this type of stuff I’m just genuinely terrified and don’t know what to do Ok so last night I (16M) made a mistake of watching some stuff and had a physical reaction and I have a huge fear of bodily fluids and them infecting things and getting people infected because I think that would basically be a crime and of course I was in bed when this happened and worse part is I was on my bare mattress since I washed my covers a week ago and didn’t put them onto my bed yet but they were sitting on my bed if that makes sense and so I decide to shower change clothes spray the part I was laying down on with Lysol and also my chair and I feel asleep thinking I would clean it my room in the morning and also use my deep cleaning rug machine in the other room because I was scared thay room was also infected. So I wake up and my mind is ringing with fear telling me everything is filthy and what really scared me the most was my little brother and I used to share a room and so he had like a pile of his clean clothes on his bed which was by my bed but separated by a dresser and our room is small my chair is in the middle of our two bed and so I was scared that his clothes are now infected and I was panicking so I decided to just get up start cleaning up in the other room in order to clean the rug and I also swept the floor so I could mop later and of course chaos ensued the machine to clean the rug wasn’t working for a good hour before I got it working and then I cleaned the rug and then finished sweeping and I was going to mop before of course I made the same mistake I did last night and now my brain things everything is infected again so I quickly go shower spray the shower with Clorox foam and Lysol on the shower handle and head and I was going to wash it all off later after it sat for a bit but and I sprayed the floor with some Clorox foam just incase someone went in there before I mopped the bathroom floor and wiped it up with a towel I start preparing the mop and yep of course something else happens the pipe in the bathroom I just showered on frayed and water was pouring everywhere I told my dad he stopped it and of course I had to take everything out of the cabinet put it on the bathroom counter but my dad out some stuff in the shower and of course I’m grossed out because I didn’t rinse the Clorox out of it so to me that stuff got dirty and my dad can’t fix the sink until tomorrow so everything in there is sitting in limbo and my dad also used the mop I was gonna use to mop the house to get the water up that was covering the bathroom floor. But I mopped anyway cleaned the floor in my room and the bathroom along with what I could get in the house. Afterwards I start cleaning my room more wiping down the chair with a Lysol wipe and the dresser separating out bed I started throwing slot of stuff away like cards, coins, mail it was cluttered anyway and I tired wiping everything down to clean it the dresser the tv controllers my phone and iPad stuff like that I put some of my coins in a back I out back onto my dresser after wiping them with a Lysol wipe or ATLEAST trying and I threw some of my brothers clothes into the laundry room because I was scared it was infected I moved some stuff out of my room because I’m honestly scared to go back in there because I don’t want to get dirty again. So now I’m lying in a different room typing this terrified I forgot to clean something which would put someone at risk and thinking of how I need to go back in my room to wash my bed covers and clean my mattress but I’m so stressed I have a headache and my laptop is broken I think so another thing on my plate and I’m spiraling and have no idea what to do
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- 10w
potential trigger warning cus insects and stuff (contamination ocd?) . Its summer in the UK, and theres a lot more bugs around. I dont dislike bugs, and if we're outside its whatever, but I realised i have huge fears when bugs are in my house. I keep getting images of fruit flies or other bugs bein at the bottom of my drink whenever i see one, or them flying into my eyes or mouth and how horrible that would feel. Ive realised i constantly feel on edge when theres insects. Its not debilitating and i can push past it pretty easily but I will stay stressed and anxious until i forget about them or go somewhere else. I also sometimes search rooms for bugs kindof subconciously? like when I enter a room - especially the bathroom cus you feel more vulnerable and all that in there - im always looking around, checking walls and the ceilings and looking to see if the window was left open and bugs mightve gotten in. Dead insects also make me feel really guilty. I remember as a kid i used to litterally break into sobbing tears when my dad would kill a fly, and although I dont cry anymore I feel just as bad whenever I see a insect dead in the bathtub or sink (where they often get stuck cus slippery surface + water) Does anyone know how to lessen my fears around bugs and the guilt? Im not scared of the bugs themselves at all. I love bugs, i find moths and ladybugs and spiders really cute but its just the "what if they get in my eye" and "what if i kill them" that repeats in my head whenever im around one.
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