Blasphemy

I can't wrap my head around the idea of the unpardanable sin. I haven't eaten in 3 days and all I want to do is sleep. I feel completely hopeless. I'm a Christian and only want to be happy again. I can't be happy and go about my life knowing that all it takes to be condemned to hell is to say something like God is evil (thats putting it mildly because im afraid to type anything worse) and because its my greatest fear and i believe in the bible i get the urge to just blurt it out! Then bam that's it! There's no going back. I get panic attacks and sweat. I just can't go on living like this. It's like hell on earth and then real hell after this life? I just can't seem to accept anything I read or hear about it because the bible itself isn't even clear about exactly what it is. The bible makes it sound like it's just saying Jesus has an unclean spirit. I know I wouldn't mean anything bad I'd say but the issue still stands. I'm stuck. I keep watching videos online and reading and everyone has a different option of what it is and nothing brings me comfort. I want these thoughts and doubts out of my head! My fear isn't that I have committed it but that I could and it would be so easy and then all hope is lost along with my soul. *If you are not a Christian please don't bother trying to respond for it will be of absolutely no help to me.

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CaptainKierk...

Date posted: 3y

I am not really sure of my beliefs on the unforgivable sin, but I’d like to point out that the verses in which Jesus describes it also describe Jesus uttering the words “he has an unclean spirit.” Would not Jesus, he who is sinless, be guilty of the unpardonable sin? No, and the reason is simple: context is everything and it isn’t the mere uttering of the words that makes it sinful but the actual conviction behind it. Ofc that could become an obsession in and of itself— there’s really no substitute for just letting the thoughts be and not compulsing. The reason you find no lasting comfort in seeking reassurance is bc you have ocd. Identifying our obsessions as irrational can help with firming our resolve to not address the fears, but it is not helpful directly for getting rid of them. I would encourage you to take the high road with this obsession and not doing anything to fix the fears no matter what. eventually, when you get good at it, you’ll find life isn’t hell on earth. ocd just makes it seem like that.

Veryaan

Date posted: 3y

Hello, I think I can help you in this matter, if you want to talk about it I'll give you my insta, I'm Catholic.

bulldogmomma13

Date posted: 3y

I'd like to chat about it

Veryaan

Date posted: 3y

Ok, you can add me on insta, my idd is: @Counselor430

bulldogmomma13

Date posted: 3y

I'm having difficulty finding you for some reason. Mine is @gillespiebrittni

bulldogmomma13

Date posted: 3y

Did you find me?

Veryaan

Date posted: 3y

Yes, I'm @cons.elhos10

bulldogmomma13

Date posted: 3y

Ok. I messaged you

Junior96!

Date posted: 3y

@bulldogmomma13 I literally can relate .

Anonymous

Date posted: 7w

I need help

So I almost said something against the Holy Spirit the devil has been trying to get me to say something against it for like weeks now and has been trying to get me to see Jesus in like a scary way with like devil horns and all of that stuff like that and then last night he made the cross my mind where I wasn’t scared to go to hell but I truly am and I see how he’s playing on my emotions and the fact that where I tried to cry, but I couldn’t cry anymore and he keeps trying to convince me to say these things that I don’t wanna say and he he keeps trying to get me to say that I curse the Holy Spirit, but I don’t I really truly don’t and then I just started to feel weird last night like I didn’t feel anything I felt really empty and then I keep praying and trying to talk to God, but I can’t feel him or the Holy Spirit. I’m scared because I feel like I’m going to hellwhat do I do? Also like as if he was on the cross and that they Holy Spirit is evil. Every form of blasphemy I feel like I’ve committed how do I fix this because now I feel empty and scared to go to hell

Anonymous

Date posted: 6w

My mind seems to be imploding in on itself

So, alot has changed. I'm Christian and currently believe we are in the end of times. It's changed my whole perspective on life. I quit my job and moved back in with family, starting to go to church, apologized to those I hurt except, one person who I talked to two family members and they told me to delete the message and with my other apology ( that i also believed was God telling me to confess in 2020) i lied at some parts because of shame and confusing myself most likely intentionally. I confessed everything to my dad and he says since i turned from it, repented, that i need to let it go and continue forward. Since then, my minds been saying that I'm outside of God's will and everything's gone down hill. I had also prayed that God exposed me and now it's like all this evil and wickedness that feels like it's coming out of my heart settles into my chest. I've prayed to God, worshipped to God, but thoughts and images of being sent to hell or my loved ones pops into my head and I've gone to sleep twice each night accepting the fact that because of me not doing so may have doomed me and my loved ones and I feel scared that I got so tired and stopped fighting it. I've had ocd since I was 7 but it just is so scary because it's hitting down to the wire and I'm scared that I was never a child of God at all I mean I have iniquity I thought I repented for but people I love still struggle with what I've done and I prayed for them and tried to help them and suggest therapy but I haven't did what I could to make it right like I should've. But these images and thoughts they're horrible. I feel like I'm against God truly and I'm like Lord change the circumstances and I won't resist so that I can preach Your word and everyday I feel like I'm gambling. It's like every thought is biblical for the most part. I don't want to kill myself cuz what if I have a chance that God will have mercy on me but....

Cammy123

Date posted: 5w

Doubting, feeling numb & blasphemous thoughts

About 2 years ago I gave my life to Jesus. I've always been a "Christian" but never truly lived liked one until then. One day I had a thought about is God real? It bothered me so bad and I went into a massive spiral. Doubting everything. My faith. if I was good enough. Am I really saved? Do I have enough faith? Is my doubt real? Is it too much? Have these blasphemous made God not want me anymore? Or Jesus? :( Then I started having horrible blasphemous thoughts, then it would go back to doubting thoughts then back to the blasphemous ones. I hated the thoughts and doubts. The thoughts are so mean towards God, Jesus & HS. It’s anywhere from evil thoughts to cussing thoughts to rejection thoughts/denying. Demonic thoughts. Literally anything bad you could think of! Even thoughts of if I really love them or wanna follow them. I feel so trapped or my faith isn't the same. Which makes me sad because I want my faith! I feel like I've gotten lazy and honestly that I don't deserve them or am "too far gone" from them. I feel like idk how to be a Christian or how to have faith or just exist tbh. I’m in a constant struggle of fear, anxiety and sadness. I wanna love God & Jesus! I want faith! I just feel kinda stuck. Please help. I feel so numb and don’t know what to do. Has anyone gone through this or has advice or tips?

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