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Yes I am at moment I am still suffering with it to a degree but it isn’t stopping me having a fulfilling loving relationship with my girlfriend. It’s helped me to realise that the content of OCD is crap. Regardless of the specific theme it always has the same pattern of doubt and feeling like I need to be certain about something be that my sexuality or wether or not I have hurt someone. Doing the opposite of what it wants me to do i.e embracing doubt and accepting the uncertainty has helped me a lot. You are not alone and you can overcome this

Ocd makes you feel like that, it's normal. Remember that you and almost every single person thinks they're an exception in ocd. It will try its best to try to get in your mind. It's trying to convince you, so the thoughts are naturally going to be convincing. You can't give them much space, just say whatever, I'll deal with this later.

There's an YouTube called Chrissie Hodges. She dealt with hocd when she was a teen and is dating a guy nowadays!

Thank you everyone for this

Oh, and I've read about another woman that also recovered from hocd, and she talked about her sexuality so confidently. She was 100% sure she was straight, and at the same time, was confident enough to say that she found women attractive. But still, she was straight, and sure of it. It was an interview, and she answered many questions readers made. Me being me didn't save the website, And now I can't find it anymore, unfortunately. What matter though, is that she went through the same thing as us, and nowadays is completely over it!

I don’t want to date anyone now. OCD made me not confident enough to love someone while I know I’m not the way ocd compels me to think I’m :(

I currently just got out of a relationship. Whenever a woman is a bitch to me, it makes my ocd worse. "See you don't even like women." She ended up cheating on me and now I feel kind of mentally castrated. There is a wonderful woman at work that seems like the girl of my dreams, but I also feel numb. I am really trying to do erp right now because I don't want to deal with this while pursuing her. I hope 3 months of serious erp will help me enough to try again.

Matters*