I blurted out to my partner he was a p word and I have pocd. He said he knows I didn’t mean it but I’m still worried and even if I overcome that worry, I’m worried I’m gonna feel worse about it again one day to the point where I have really dark thoughts and act on them and it will happen fast
Let the fear be there as you continue to do things
Say it again ...be exposed to ur thoughts
Remember, you don’t need to figure out your thoughts
I’m not sure how it is helping saying them it’s making me worry I’m gonna do something dangerous one day
I’m really really really scared I’m gonna do something dangerous one day on impulse before it’s too late because I’m gonna freak out one day for saying that thing
Maybe so maybe not. You don’t need to figure that out
But how can I not figure that out, it’s quite an important thing to figure out
You would think so but staying stuck on it isn’t going to help. I know it’s hard and you’re scared of what you might do, but getting to a place of trusting yourself is what matters
But I’m worried I could just randomly switch one day and do something on impulse cos I’m so upset at what I said and just flip
@Skye436 That’s not how it works.
@Nica 🙏
@Brian :) How does it not work like that though, might it not work like that for some people, or what if it magically happens to me
@Skye436 You’re right. There’s a possibility for everything. But that’s the point, anything can happen. Even if the thought does come up. You can make the choice not to listen to it. You always have the choice not to listen to it.
@Jordan K But that’s a super scary thought and it’s attached to something else I’m worrying about something I said to my partner that I became severely depressed over even though he doesn’t care about what I said
@Skye436 And worried I’ll become even worse over it
@Jordan K Also it doesn’t feel like the choice not to listen
@Skye436 Try finding healthy distractions. OCD will attach itself to anything whether it feels logical or not. That doesn’t make the behavior any less unhealthy
@Jordan K I’m too depressed and regretful from what I have done to try to do anything
@Skye436 That’s just it. You don’t have to do anything. But you deserve joy. So if you don’t anything make sure that’s what it gives you. You could watch tv, or listen to music.
@Jordan K I literally feel no hope anymore about it, my relationship is a mess cos I called them something I can’t get over even tho they forgive me for it, it goes round in my head
I know. But remember you reviewing that memory is a compulsion. You are able to make choices for yourself. If you don’t want to react impulsively again you don’t have to. I know sometimes it feels like we don’t have say about what happens in our lives but you do.
@Jordan K Totally relate to this and trying so hard to resist . Ik thus wasn’t directed forwards me , but this is jus great advice I needed . Thank you
But if I have felt so depressed about it before I’m worried I could get worse and wanna do something dangerous one day and it will be so impulsive I won’t have time to stop it
That must be so scary. I know how it feels to be afraid of yourself. Something that I learned though was about the power of decisions based on values. I know sometimes it’s so overwhelming and you’re worried that you’re going to have to submit to it but believe it or not, you never have to listen to your OCD. No matter how bad or scary the thoughts are.
I don’t deserve joy I said something to my partner which is a massive trigger of my ocd and I can’t take it back
I know you feel that way but whether or not this is true, OCD doesn’t deserve to win. Even if it’s at your expense
But how can I be calm and commit with him if I’m always gonna be worrying about that particular thing that I said to him
By accepting that the thought is there and live your life
i need some advice!! when i was 16, i was watching an anime and this character had abs and he was 12. i remember at the time (from what i can remember), i made a weird comment on his physique. saying things like “omg how did he become this buff haha.” and “oh im going to jail.” i even said “it’s only a 4 year difference.” like WHAT?!? just because it’s a 4 year difference, doesn’t make it okay. its WEIRD!! why would i say that? i also want to mention that i have a hard time keeping my thoughts to myself bc of my ADHD, so i tend to blurt things out. i just find it disturbing that i would have such thoughts, let alone say it out loud. i never had attraction to kids bc its immorally wrong and disgusting, but i feel no different from the ppl who would hurt children irl. I’ve tried forgive myself multiple times, but what i did is irredeemable. i feel like i am using my OCD as an excuse. i am so scared that i am a p, i want to d1e. my life is ruined.
I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.
I’m scared I might become a r*pist I’m over here thinking at a time I saw a kid and I looked down at his pants like I keep thinking about what I did and it’s like I feel attracted and to me it felt like I gave him this predator look and he probably thinks I’m a P I just wonder how is this Pocd Because it feels like I want to do stuff like I don’t know I keep thinking about that situation
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