Even though I embrace something not real to me, Ocd still doesnt let me go. I try to convince myself ok i might be bi, but i still cannot get relieved. It feels like I have to act on it to prove I am really bi. The fact is that I dont want to and always feel the compulsion in my brain.

totally understand you ! When i expose myself to the situation that i fear, all feelings are so real that it makes me ruminate. however when i step out of the situation, the feelings will go very soon. Thats why i know the feeling cannot be real.... The fear is aroused by the anxiety and rumination so its not our true feeling. But sometimes you know it just feels so real.....

It does and that’s what scares us . I know for me I’m so afraid of being someone I’m not . And I’m so afraid that one day I will turn into a completely different person I don’t want to be . But as I read on recovery skills and managing this I realized it gets better . And in the last 4 months since I’ve been diagnosed. I have had different themes and I’ve noticed that all of the themes give me the same distressing and anxious feeling . As well as depersonalization. And that’s another key detail I use to help me realize the thought is bs

when i cannot disregard the thoughts, I tell myself ok now I yield to OCD, but i wont act on it. I accept that hocd is messing my head but nothing will change my character. I make effort to try different methods, still hocd still hits me hard.... different “arguments” just fight in my head every day....

@naj you just described me exactly.. it’s like my biggest fear is not being my best (or ‘true’) self, and the OCD always has the same feeling of dread and sadness and depersonalization. I always try to remind myself that no matter what, I have OCD and life isn’t supposed to feel this way. As hard as it is to get out of the cycle and as tempting as compulsions are, I am definitely not living my best life when I’m stuck in these thoughts.

I don’t think that’s what they mean by accepting it

Because as someone with pocd , you’re nobody gonna be like okay I guess I might be a pedophile and move on. I think when they mean accept they mean accept that it may be ocd and accept that you are getting the thoughts but also understand it has nothing to do with you or your character

Me too I definitely know the feeling but I noticed that The thoughts only bother me when I put air of thought into it . I’ve caught myself being preoccupied by real life things and I haven’t done anything or thought anything out of my character and that how I know those feelings are false . And I’m sure it’s false with you too . The more you pay attention to it the more it’ll stick to you . And I’m not trying to give reassurance but almost all the ocd therapist I’ve seen talk about ocd have said they’ve never seen a person with ocd act on their fears . It’s literally just something you’re afraid of . I know it’s easier said than done because I’m currently struggling with it myself but I realized it will get better and we all know ourselves deep down inside and I think all of us low key know that these thoughts and compulsions and feelings are not what we are .

For me, I have HOCD. I have no problems with men but I know i dont want to date them. I’m so afraid that one day my compulsoon/ seeming-real feeling make me date boys. That’s why Im so freaking scared :( When I go out, trigger is everywhere. but I tell myself that I cannot avoid them and I have to face the problem. We have to be sure about that We WILL NOT become that kind of people we DONT want to be !!!! It’s very important !

@m.a.d. agree....we are not living our best lives... Hope that Ocd goes away ASAP so that I can have my life back.

That’s how I feel especially because summer is coming and I want to enjoy life the way I truly want to and be the woman I’ve always known I can be