Really triggered by a Tik tok :( SOS

But yes, on this app I learned a lot of good advices. The first one is to take your ocd healing like a healing journey, for self growth! I was always triggered by the fact that "maybe he isn't the one". After recognise the trigger a couple of times, after learning how to managing emotions that I leads, I started to be curious about myself! And I noticed that the belief of the "right one" put up a lot of impossibile expectations for my bf! I used to think that the right one should makes me feel happy all the time. But no human can do that! (So every time I was sad and he was there, I thought that he wasn't the one.) I used to think that w the right one, I should always feel attracted, butterfly etc. But it is not like that! Jt is absolutely normal to feel nothing sometimes and super attracted some others! It is also normal to feel attracted by other people too! But you see how this belief used to trigger me every time I didn't felt the super attraction!

I learned that sometimes I was more scared about my possible reaction to the toughts that of the toughts. I learned that we should have "pity" for ourselves and don't be mad at us when we can't heal immediately. I learned that the best way to let anxiety go is to feel it, wanting to feel jt! If you are scared, more anxiety will arrive! If you feel it, it goes! I learned that the most you learn about ocd the easiest it became to manage! The key of intrusive toughts is letting them be there. It doesn't means accepting them, and most important it doesn't means fighting them! Simply let them be there and practice to recognise them! Once you recognise them, if you makes fun of them, if you laught about them, you will send the message to your brain that that possibility doesn't have to be that scary. And eventually, it will actually become more comfortable. I learned that it never is all black or all white. There are always shade in the middle. I learned about attachment theory, (and that's is an another world of healing haha, I am an anxious attached person) I learned about assertively and communication! I learned to validate my feelings.

let the discomfort be there. It's all free ERP!😄😄

Then I started therapy, and things went a lil better, she gave me some "homework" like "allowing myself to cry and feel all my feelings in a safe place for 30 min every day" or "writing all the toughs of the day at a certain hour, and posticipate them to that hour" I was still really down, feeling awful and after that I started my research and found this app, and rocd! From there, I started to learn as much as I could about ocd, how it works, what is a compulsion, what is an urge, how to heal from them etc.

Story is still long haha, but now, after a lil less than a year, things are going really great! I just had a bad day some days ago, but nothing in comparison to the first months, plus before that I didn't had one since like 3 months!😄😄😄

Inside us there is just a little us that wants to be listened and understood. And triggers are just call of help from this lil girl😂 I had to get rid of the mentality that my family taught me too, the "if you doubt it's already a no". Or the fact that having toughts is really difficult from acting that toughts Everything that I wrote here, were just wrong beliefs that I used and that hurted me. I couldn't had found them without trigghers!

May I wrote a lil too much haha, sorry

Can you recognise when you are spiraling?