edenmn
- Date posted
- 3y
fears of typing somn inappropriate?
its like i have to ss every dm with anyone in fear i'd type anything inappropriate
patrock182patrock182
- Date posted
- 3y
Ocd will always try to play tricks on us like that. It wants you to worry that if you delete the person’s page you wont be able to go back and check for evidence that you have typed something bad on their page. This is just ocd playing it’s usual tricks and putting intrusive thoughts in our heads to make us check that fear which is a compulsion. I would say the best thing you can do is speak to a licences therapist and focus on erp as this will help you accept the uncertainty and weaken the importance of the intrusive thoughts. Apologies if i am coming across to reassurring as i know that is one of the worst things we can do to help with ocd. I completely understand your pain with this and i plan to get myself with this type of ocd theme. I highly recommend opening up and speaking to a therapist who can give professional advice :)
patrock182patrock182
- Date posted
- 3y
I plan to get myself better with this type of ocd theme*
patrock182patrock182
- Date posted
- 3y
I struggle with this also. Especially at work, i fear i have typed something inappropriate. I eventually had to open up to my manager about my ocd as it made me fall behind lots with my workload by constantly checking emails etc. Luckily they were very supportive. I do also get this in my personal life with dms, messaging and social media etc. I hope you start feeling better soon, you are not alone.
edenmnedenmn
- Date posted
- 3y
@patrock182 tw grooming : // i remember my ocd saying i typed something horrible today . the messages didnt send cuz i wasnt friends w the person but im sure i spammed the hi emoticon and said hi and then i said why was i banned and now my ocd kees saying i said " i wanna groom u " so now i feel bad
patrock182patrock182
- Date posted
- 3y
@edenmn I know exactly how you feel. It is very stressful when your ocd tries to convince you that you have typed something you would never want to type and something against your nature. I spoke about this lots with my therapist and he explained that i would know if i typed something inappropriate and it’s just my ocd being a bully and it trying to latch onto anything to cause anxiety. Easier said than done but my therapist also said not to give these thoughts any importance, they are just thoughts and not us. I used ERP and found it very helpful, it is scary at first as you just want to check what you have typed to make sure it wasn’t inappropriate but by not giving in to the ocd checking, it retrains our brains and stops giving that intrusive thought any importance. Im of course not an expert but I hope that helps in some way. It might be worth seeking a therapist to chat more about this. I have recently had a slight relapse but therapy helped me over the last few months and I’m planning to speak to a therapist soon to help with this. I’m sure it will help you lots :)
edenmnedenmn
- Date posted
- 3y
@patrock182 thank u sm!
edenmnedenmn
- Date posted
- 3y
@edenmn its happening again !! i was ruminating on the issue while looking at their acc and now my ocd is saying i typed it ahaib and deleted it or was about to type it when thats both false i didnt send anything or type anything so now my ocd keeps making up false mwmories to the point idk what to do. i dont wanna delete the persons page cuz im worried my ocd is gonna say i typed somn bad
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