About a year ago I began to worry about developing schizophrenia it was so bad that I convinced myself I needed sectioned and that I definitely have it. Since then My intrusive thoughts have jumped from theme to theme but It always seems to go back to worrying about schizophrenia I don’t get anxious like I used to but it’s so annoying I wish someone could tell me 100% that I’ll never get it. I know the chances are really small and i will probably never get it but the uncertainty kills me

I would recommend try to let yourself believe what you want to believe... what my therapist told me to do is remind myself there is a chance of developing a crazy illness BUT there is a higher chance that it wont happen. OCD is all about not knowing anything FOR SURE.

I guess my main worry is that my life will be gripped by a crippling illness and I won’t be able to do all the things that I want to do in my life and I won’t be able to give my son a good life

I had this exact same problem. I know how paralyzing it can be and how hopeless you must feel. The only thing that really helped me get over it was doing exposure response prevention therapy. I would definitely recommend going to an ERP specialist, but if you don’t have access to that, the OCD workbook is really good. You can get it on Amazon for super cheap!

Thank you both for the support. Ellie what did you do for ERP? I tried doing a loop tape erp with my therapist but it didn’t work because I wouldn’t get anxious listening to the tape. Most of the time I know my OCD is irrational which makes the erp really hard because I can’t force myself to be anxious it’s only in the heat of the moment of anxiety that It feels real

It can be hard to do erp on mental rituals sometimes for the reason you describe. But what you can do is erp when the anxiety strikes. Just let the thoughts be there and the anxiety be there without engaging the content of the thoughts. Feeling anxiety is an exposure.

The truth is you cant be certain you will or wilk nit get some horrible illness. But with ocd you can realize youve spebt years if your life wondering will I get sick and not living in the moment. Even if yo u do get sick being worried about it before wont have helped so its just a compulsion and at the end of the day a waste of time. A lot of time. Learning mindfullness skills and acceptance and commitment therapy can complement erp treatment as well for ocd. Id recommend checking them out.

I did a lot of loop tapes consistently. I would set a timer on my phone and do them every thirty minutes for a few days. It works for me but I’m sure it might not be the same for everyone. I think another good method is to sit with the thoughts exactly phisch said and don’t try to avoid them. The loop tips for me were essentially allowing myself to think about being schizophrenic consistently throughout the day. I ultimately got bored with the thought and I don’t have as much anxiety when I think about it now