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- 3y
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- 3y
I don’t have much advice but I know exactly what you mean. I feel like I can’t trust my judgement on anything.
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- 3y
Understanding can always grow. I beat myself up for being a slower learner but i have to give myself credit for my anxiety and ocd. It’s not our fault for being dealt the joker card but we can always figure out a way to learn in our own ways. It takes time. It takes practice. It takes repeated failure. It’s hard but not impossible.
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 3y
It sounds like this topic is very worrying for you, so maybe taking a break to do something relaxing instead of Googling might help. Do you have a favorite thing to do that’s relaxing? I take a good shower, washing my hair included, I do a face mask and my full skin care routine, and I read a book for fun. Even if it’s the middle of the day, it kind of feels like a chance to start the day over. If you don’t know what you can do to relax or you don’t feel like you can stop worrying, it might be a good idea to talk to someone, like the therapists on this app if you can. No one really knows what they’re doing, even if it seems like they do. If you don’t know what you’re doing, that’s okay and you’ll be able to figure it out. It’s okay if along the way you take breaks to rest and recover.
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- 3y
I find everything highly complex, and If i cant understand something it generates alot of anxiety. Even the things that i do to distract myself, nothing is relaxing, since this hocd/tocd, ive lost my entire identity, idk who i am and what im supposed to be doing, idk what makes me ME, my past me seems like it was all incorrect. Im super detached from reality, like my head is in a completely different space than everyone else. Its so hard to describe
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
@Imaan7 It sounds so hard to live that way all the time! Stressful and exhausting. I had my own similar experience, also related to soocd, I think. I began to experience uncharacteristic, sexual thoughts when I was 13 years old and it started to destroy my personality and many of my relationships. By the end of high school, I felt I had no friends because I avoided everyone. When I went to college, I wanted to have a good experience and make new friends and belong but I had so much anxiety all the time. I wanted to feel different so that I could act different and feel normal, but I couldn’t do it. I thought I was doomed to a miserable, lonely existence. Know that it’s okay to feel the way you’re feeling right now, it’s so, so real. It’s hard to believe, but there is a way to not feel this way too. You deserve to feel good just because you’re you and you’re alive.
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- 24w
This is my first post, so I apologize if the formatting is weird. I experience existential ocd I always struggled as a kid but learned more and more how to manage with school and such forcing me to learn how, now I experience a lot of overwhelming intrusions from when I wake up to when I go to bed (simply because I live and work in the same place it gets cabin feverish) but now more often going out maybe it’s just paranoia, I walk into a place and each person comes with a story immediately, every piece of trash on the floor, every piece of produce, each isle is a brand new way I could get into a life altering situation. I’ve managed well enough but sometimes I just completely lose my original objective and just leave or I’ll wanna leave my house but everything that goes with it and that could happen pops up and I just won’t go. It’s started to become avoidant behavior. Any help or similar stories? I just feel like I’m going crazy but my thoughts are so scattered and immediate it’s hard to break the habit and not spin a story. Thank yall!
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- 23w
the concept of death & existence is ruining my life rn 😭 im losing so much sleep. i try to close my eyes & all my brain wants to do is try to wrap itself around the idea of what not existing feels like & i get this sinking feeling that grows & grows until my eyes snap open & i have to go back on my phone to distract myself until im literally too exhausted to keep my head up & my body forces me to sleep. it makes having the motivation to do anything hard because all i can think is "it wont matter when i die". it sucks because i know that having MORE in my life might actually improve this, im 21 unemployed still living at home with ASD & i know once i have a job that will definitely give me more to focus on & other stresses to have lol, but i feel like im stuck in the endless cycle of "not having a life makes me worried im wasting my life & itll all be over so fast" & then "being so stressed about my life & time passing is exhausting & makes it too hard to find the motivation to do anything other than sit here" & repeat. spirituality is hard because i like thinking that way, like afterlife & shit, but i worry that im just "in denial" & using it as an unhealthy coping mechanism that leads to magical thinking thoughts. then its like i have some sort of meta ocd spiral obsessing over if what im doing is bad & unhealthy for my ocd or not. i LIKE being spiritual but im worrying im hurting myself & doing a compulsion thinking that way. it also doesnt help that religious spaces have hurt & traumatized so many people & im terrified of being apart of a "delusional" community that spreads a false narrative & attacks anyone that doesnt agree with them. i know i am not like that but i worry im still apart of the problem even thinking this way. at the end of the day no one knows the truth, no one knows what happens after death. im just struggling to sit with the uncertainty. it is so late rn idk of any of my words make sense lol
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- 23w
Hey everyone, I just wanted to share something I’ve been struggling with, especially around making decisions. It’s really hard for me to feel confident in the choices I make, even when I know what the right thing is. I constantly find myself needing validation from others—whether it’s about something small or something really important. For example, at my job, I might know exactly what I’m doing and have done it right a bunch of times, but I still feel the need to double-check with someone or ask if it’s okay. It’s like this fear kicks in, and I start imagining worst-case scenarios—like what if I mess up and someone gets hurt, and then I get blamed or even end up in jail or prison. I know that sounds extreme, but these thoughts just come automatically, and they feel so real in the moment. This has been going on for maybe a year or two now. Even outside of work, the same thing happens. Like recently, I’ve been trying to figure out a gym schedule—my girlfriend wants to go with me, and I’m trying to plan the times and make it all work. But instead of just choosing what works best for me, I overthink it. I go back and forth in my head, and I ask other people what they think, even though deep down I know this is something I should be deciding for myself. It’s my life, but I still need that reassurance from others, and I don’t really know why. It’s exhausting to always doubt myself and to feel like one wrong choice could lead to something terrible. I’m trying to work through it, but I just wanted to put it out there and see if anyone else deals with this or has advice. Thanks for reading.
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