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- 3y
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- 3y
I don’t have much advice but I know exactly what you mean. I feel like I can’t trust my judgement on anything.
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- 3y
Understanding can always grow. I beat myself up for being a slower learner but i have to give myself credit for my anxiety and ocd. It’s not our fault for being dealt the joker card but we can always figure out a way to learn in our own ways. It takes time. It takes practice. It takes repeated failure. It’s hard but not impossible.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
It sounds like this topic is very worrying for you, so maybe taking a break to do something relaxing instead of Googling might help. Do you have a favorite thing to do that’s relaxing? I take a good shower, washing my hair included, I do a face mask and my full skin care routine, and I read a book for fun. Even if it’s the middle of the day, it kind of feels like a chance to start the day over. If you don’t know what you can do to relax or you don’t feel like you can stop worrying, it might be a good idea to talk to someone, like the therapists on this app if you can. No one really knows what they’re doing, even if it seems like they do. If you don’t know what you’re doing, that’s okay and you’ll be able to figure it out. It’s okay if along the way you take breaks to rest and recover.
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- 3y
I find everything highly complex, and If i cant understand something it generates alot of anxiety. Even the things that i do to distract myself, nothing is relaxing, since this hocd/tocd, ive lost my entire identity, idk who i am and what im supposed to be doing, idk what makes me ME, my past me seems like it was all incorrect. Im super detached from reality, like my head is in a completely different space than everyone else. Its so hard to describe
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
@Imaan7 It sounds so hard to live that way all the time! Stressful and exhausting. I had my own similar experience, also related to soocd, I think. I began to experience uncharacteristic, sexual thoughts when I was 13 years old and it started to destroy my personality and many of my relationships. By the end of high school, I felt I had no friends because I avoided everyone. When I went to college, I wanted to have a good experience and make new friends and belong but I had so much anxiety all the time. I wanted to feel different so that I could act different and feel normal, but I couldn’t do it. I thought I was doomed to a miserable, lonely existence. Know that it’s okay to feel the way you’re feeling right now, it’s so, so real. It’s hard to believe, but there is a way to not feel this way too. You deserve to feel good just because you’re you and you’re alive.
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- 22w
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- 21w
I feel like I can’t explain anything to anyone and feel so dumb. I feel like everything that comes out of my mouth doesn’t make sense sometimes. I tried explaining what a vendor was about and couldn’t explain it and fear that I could get fired or won’t be able to move up because of this. I can’t explain things and hate explaining things. I don’t know how to get better and don’t know how to not feel stupid and feel like I have a purpose in this world. I feel like I don’t provide value for my job or at least my new manager who just got hired doesn’t see it and won’t because she’s really tough and doesn’t understand. She’s too blunt and very rude sometimes. I also feel so anxious 24/7. I feel like I need to workout but don’t have the motivation to and just want to be in my bed because I’m exhausted after work and during the weekend. Boredom sucks too. I wish I had someone who could be there for me wish I had a significant other. I don’t like exposure therapy and it’s not working at all. I tried it for a while. Same with Acceptance Respond Therapy.
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- 21w
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