Im getting overwhelmed by the complexity of everything in this world. Its giving me so much anxiety and depressive feelings that I cant understand how things are built and work, it makes me feel really stupid and helpless. Idk if im mentally backwards or what but im struggling to comprehend words. One example ill give is, how are wrappers made? How do letters appear on covers of objects, like books or bottles etc. It goes even further like how do people figure out how to do stuff? How do they make the right decision? How do they even know what to do? When i try to think about them my mind cant even begin to think. Like i have to google everything and even then comprehension and capacity to think is poor as fuck. Does any of this make sense? What am I dealing with? Sorry the post is very vague, if anyone wants to add similar experience please do

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Risingwithlo...

Date posted: 3y

I don’t have much advice but I know exactly what you mean. I feel like I can’t trust my judgement on anything.

cmac1339

Date posted: 3y

Understanding can always grow. I beat myself up for being a slower learner but i have to give myself credit for my anxiety and ocd. It’s not our fault for being dealt the joker card but we can always figure out a way to learn in our own ways. It takes time. It takes practice. It takes repeated failure. It’s hard but not impossible.

doinghardthings

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

It sounds like this topic is very worrying for you, so maybe taking a break to do something relaxing instead of Googling might help. Do you have a favorite thing to do that’s relaxing? I take a good shower, washing my hair included, I do a face mask and my full skin care routine, and I read a book for fun. Even if it’s the middle of the day, it kind of feels like a chance to start the day over. If you don’t know what you can do to relax or you don’t feel like you can stop worrying, it might be a good idea to talk to someone, like the therapists on this app if you can. No one really knows what they’re doing, even if it seems like they do. If you don’t know what you’re doing, that’s okay and you’ll be able to figure it out. It’s okay if along the way you take breaks to rest and recover.

Imaan7

Date posted: 3y

I find everything highly complex, and If i cant understand something it generates alot of anxiety. Even the things that i do to distract myself, nothing is relaxing, since this hocd/tocd, ive lost my entire identity, idk who i am and what im supposed to be doing, idk what makes me ME, my past me seems like it was all incorrect. Im super detached from reality, like my head is in a completely different space than everyone else. Its so hard to describe

doinghardthings

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

@Imaan7 It sounds so hard to live that way all the time! Stressful and exhausting. I had my own similar experience, also related to soocd, I think. I began to experience uncharacteristic, sexual thoughts when I was 13 years old and it started to destroy my personality and many of my relationships. By the end of high school, I felt I had no friends because I avoided everyone. When I went to college, I wanted to have a good experience and make new friends and belong but I had so much anxiety all the time. I wanted to feel different so that I could act different and feel normal, but I couldn’t do it. I thought I was doomed to a miserable, lonely existence. Know that it’s okay to feel the way you’re feeling right now, it’s so, so real. It’s hard to believe, but there is a way to not feel this way too. You deserve to feel good just because you’re you and you’re alive.

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