7710 ❤️
- Date posted
- 2y
KosIsFacingItKosIsFacingIt
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- 2y
I can relate it really sucks, i just tried to push past it, cause Ik I love my partner, keep ya chin up, I’ll pray for you
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y
I am scared. I just don’t wanna admit I am not in love anymore… bc it honestly feels that way… 😢 I don’t want it to be that way! I keep waking up bc I honestly believe I don’t love him anymore! 😭 it never felt like this before! I just wanna love him! 😭😭 I keep believing I am lying I keep believing I am leading him on. I don’t like this! It never felt this strong and felt so true! It’s like I am stuck like this!! 😭😭
Sunny87Sunny87
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- 2y
@7710 ❤️ You aren’t alone! I’m struggling with these exact feelings and moments. It’s hard. Bc even though you know love is a choice, there is OCD bullying and making you think you don’t want that choice anymore. The disconnection becomes insane and you start to believe everything bc you don’t have feelings or positive thoughts to reassure you. So you just feel numb, hopeless, and disconnected. I get it 100%. The worst feeling ever. It’s possible that it’s done. But it’s also possible that the feelings are there and exist deep underneath the trauma. It’s all confusing. But at the end of the day…. What the worst that can happen? We will be ok. OCD is a bitch.
KosIsFacingItKosIsFacingIt
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- 2y
@7710 ❤️ That’s what OCD makes you think, I have it all the time, you want him, you want to stay with him, than do, I know if feels like your just making it worse but you can’t live in that fear, you have to face it, plus relationships do have up and down moments yk, what my gf and I do is we got this app called evergreen that has helped us grow as a couple more and know eachother more, maybe you should look into stuff like that to maybe help you and him
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y
@Shut up brain I know they do. I am freaking out bc it’s never felt this serious before…. 😖
KosIsFacingItKosIsFacingIt
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- 2y
@7710 ❤️ I get it, you just have to push past the bs, Ik easier said than done but it is possible, good luck, I’ll pray for you
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y
@Shut up brain It hasn’t gotten easier. Not one bit.
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y
@7710 ❤️ I’m tired of being stressed out by everything and everyone around me. I hate my job.. ( don’t know what type of career I even want) I hate living with my family bc they just constantly yell and get pissed off for no freaking reason. Living with my family has put strain on the relationship! But don’t make enough so we can’t even move out!! I am tired of people thinking they can control me and my freaking car and get pissed off at me when I say no to them! I stress eat and buying things bc it’s a stress relief! I just want the stress to end!
tgrace22tgrace22
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- 2y
@7710 ❤️ Hey sounds like professional help could be good. Do you have someone to talk to?
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y
@tgrace22 No… that’s why things have been difficult…
tgrace22tgrace22
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- 2y
@7710 ❤️ Yeah it can be hard. Some tips…I’d advise you to find a trusted friend or family member you can lean on or if you’re spiritual at all, a local pastor or church. It’s always helpful to have perspective from people who are closer to your situation in real life. Sounds like you’re aware of the bad patterns so that’s good. Maybe take some time each day to do some mindful journaling and figure out what you can control and what you can’t in each situation and remind yourself of your values. Let your values guide your actions. Maybe get some books on careers, relationships, etc? The point is you have agency even though you feel overwhelmed, you are not powerless!
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y
@tgrace22 I did have a friend I could go to but I heard she gossiped about it thru a friend and that caused me to lose trust in her.. right now I am convinced I don’t love anyone.. I just hate feeling this way… it’s really like I no longer love him…
KosIsFacingItKosIsFacingIt
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- 2y
@7710 ❤️ I can relate, all I can say is push through it man, I’ll pray for you , good luck, sorry I was no help, please consider getting more help, that is always helpful, good luck!
Sunny87Sunny87
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- 2y
Same girl. Same. Now I feel better, but am scared to get close or be loving because I don’t want to lead him on.
tgrace22tgrace22
- Date posted
- 2y
Ugh yes this has been my struggle too
tgrace22tgrace22
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- 2y
Whatever you do don’t make any decisions. Just don’t. Relationships aren’t only valuable if we feel a certain way at all times.
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y
I’m not. I am still confused if this is even ROCD or not. I know I still love him and have feelings for him still. I am actually worried if I fell out of love. I know being in love is a feeling but that’s why I am worried. What if I’m not in love anymore? It’s like I know I’m not… but I know I’ve been obsessing for a long time. I still ask for hugs and kisses. I still do things to show I love him him yet I think I don’t love him? I do more for him than anyone else.
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Anonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 25w
I feel like I don’t love him sometimes 💔
I realized I’ve depended a lot on my boyfriend for comfort through my ocd, and I’m starting to feel like even before my ocd I was paying more attention to the relationship itself more than him, or the attachment: even though I remember distinct feelings of me wanting to be with him forever, and feeling so happy and complete with him, time didn’t exist, I felt like my most authentic self. So now I’m trying to create a healthy attachment and see him as his own person, which was helping at first, but now it feels as if I’m seeing that I don’t actually love him for him, the thought of moving forward in life without him breaks my heart and I don’t want to but my mind keeps telling me that I want it because of the attachment. He’s the exact type of person and partner I would want but it feels like whatever I feel is not enough.. But I DO experience moments of affection and care and admiration for him but they don’t last long..before I started making this shift in perspective even with the ocd I was still so sure and confident in moving forward with him, I felt so much like I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life. But now that I’ve made this shift it feels like I’m seeing him from a whole different place. Like all those good and happy feelings I had for him are gone now and I don’t have any confidence in what I want anymore. Before I did feel confident that I wanted to be with him but now it feels like there’s this wall between him and me :( I want to be with him I know I do, because even now I still feel the desire to keep going, but I can’t see the future anymore or the confidence to keep going. I was never much of a future thinker, even in my personal life but this feels like added proof I feel like I’m alone in this like no one else has this situation and the chances for me to realize after I recover that I don’t actually love him are so much higher 💔
Mariabae
- Date posted
- 14w
i feel so strange
hi! I broke a short period of doing well without compulsions because I got triggered again. Before this, I had about two calmer days where I didn’t spiral so much, but now everything feels worse. I’m scared that I don’t love my boyfriend as much as I used to, or that this relationship is making me feel stuck or sad. He’s a wonderful person, and I hate thinking this way. I smelled a perfume that used to make me feel calm and in love, and now it just makes me question everything. I spent hours last night searching Reddit, especially on r/ROCD, trying to see if someone is like me or if anyone has answers. I keep rereading posts, hoping I’ll feel certain about what I should do. But I just feel more confused. I keep thinking, “What if I heal and then realize I don’t love him?” or “What if I’m only staying because I feel safe with him or I’m used to him?” I feel numb sometimes, or like I’m pretending, and I hate it. I want to feel love and clarity again. I don’t know what’s real or what’s ROCD anymore. I just feel lost and afraid. I talk to hi. now and i feel so strange like i dont want to force myself i want to like him i dont understand what i feel i feel so weird in my chest
Mariabae
- Date posted
- 13w
would like a response
Lately, I’ve been feeling like something has changed in me — like I have changed, and like my feelings for my boyfriend have faded or shifted. It’s one of the worst sensations I’ve ever felt. I keep thinking things like “I don’t love him like before” or “I’ve changed too much to feel anything now.” Sometimes when he calls me or makes a joke, I get irritated for no reason. I feel like I’m being mean, cold, disconnected — and then guilt crashes down on me. I remember how I used to feel: warm, close, expressive. And now… I just don’t feel the same. That makes me think: “Maybe I’ve fallen out of love.” But I’m also constantly anxious. I overthink every moment. I can’t relax into anything without analyzing if what I feel is “right.” It makes me wonder — maybe I haven’t actually changed. Maybe I’m just overwhelmed and tired from months of these thoughts and fears. I don’t know how to feel right now. I just want to believe that this disconnection isn’t proof that love is gone, but a sign that I’m scared and burnt out.
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