- Date posted
- 3y
Any advice?
So my boyfriends birthday is coming up and I was thinking on asking his family if they’d help me surprise him for it. I was getting really excited because it’s the first birthday I’d celebrate, the surprise ‘party’ would be the next day from his birthday because he’s in school all day for his birthday, the next day would be where he’d have more time so we can celebrate. The problem is that his mom recently invited me to a big party, since I’m not allowed to go out late to parties she told me to invite an old friend of ours so I could go since my parents only let me out late if a close firmed goes, but we don’t really talk to her anymore because of this incident happened that I had a sleepover with her and two other friends and we kissed in a non romantic way, I was kind of forced to do it. I made a big deal out of it and told my boyfriend the next day because I felt what happened was wrong, after that I had real event ocd for about five months even tho my boyfriend forgave me I still felt guilty every day and still do sometimes. But at this point I avoid the girl at all cost and feel really uncomfortable because I remember everything and start to feel bad all over again. So I’m scared that if I tell his mom what I want to do she’s gonna tell me to invite our friends over and I don’t know how I’d tell her no because she obviously doesn’t know what happened and that we don’t talk to the girl anymore, i also wouldn’t want that to happen and for me to say ‘yeah sure’ and then lie and say I asked and nobody wanted to go just so I can avoid having to feel triggered by my ocd and deal with real event ocd again :( (I’m sure my boyfriend doesn’t care whether more people go or not he’d be content with just me and his family) but I’m started to get worried about that and want to avoid it at all cost but I’m upset because I really wanted to surprise him and now my ocd is latching on to this and I doubt I’ll get to do what I wanted :(