- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
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@blazed Hey, i am having a hard time can you help me pls.. Also this person i saw at a concert pretty and smiled at me and the thought of hooking with her?!? Came so normally without anxiety like it happens with guys and the thing is i know i am writing this cause this is an extreme thought that felt extremely okay and normal and pushed me to be on the verge if accepting that i am in denial and its not ocd cause i want to still believe its ocd which is why i am adding all these question marks and exclamation marks to make it more urgent and scary so that the person i send to sees it and sensed my desperation which will lead them into telling me that its ocd and denial and i know that will make me feel less scared and okay which is why I consciously am writing this and asking what if questions cause i know how ocd works otherwise why would i get such an extreme thought tht felt so normal and also like i want to actually do it like anyother bi person would think. How is something so extreme ocd ??
@Brave through OCD tends to fixate on what is most important to the individual. the more you do your compulsions, the worse it will probably get. feel the anxiety and distress and then accept it, without doing any compulsions, accept the uncertainty behind your fears.
@Brave through This sounds like the backdoor spike to me. Youāre anxious about not being anxious to the thoughts you had. Youāre questioning and doubting yourself a lot and the only thing you can do is sit with the uncertainty. I know itās extremely difficult to do but itāll relieve your anxiety in the long run. Tell yourself āmaybe, maybe notā and donāt feed into the thoughts and compulsions. Iām sorry youāre going through this :( you will get through it š¤
@epic_OCD_sufferer Hi epic ocd sufferer could I ask a question as I have to go to an ocd clinic shortly. My therapist said Hocd means I am not gay and PoCD means I am not a pedophile. Is this true as tbis is what all the therapists have said to me
@lizzie11811 trust your therapists.
no idea bro, just like with everything else OCD related, there is no certainty. become accustomed to the idea that your HOCD may or may not become completely unmanageable, accept that uncertainty.
Its hard man. I feel like ive been acting on my thoughts and feelings and desires.... I just wanna be straight.
@Sp1999 yup itās very very difficult bro, thatās something you need to accept too. accept that you have OCD and accept that HOCD is a consequence of you having this debilitating disorder.
@epic_OCD_sufferer Hey, could you help me too pls i just commented below with my problem. Any advice?
@Brave through take some deep breaths my friend, OCD is only as bad as it is for you right now because you are desperate for certainty. there is no certainty, become accustomed to that idea.
Well I do but then I see comment saying you can have HOcD and realise you are Gay and baffles me. Is this true
yeah itās difficult to know which of your thoughts are real or not, why is why OCD survives due to that need for certainty, which is why accepting the uncertainty is crucial
Can you dm me I want to talk to someone who has the fear of being bi tooš
Same boat fam
@Sp1999 Do you want to talk about it ?
@Sp1999 Privately?
@Someonepleasehelp Sure
@Someonepleasehelp Same boat:(
Thatās dope I mess with itšš¼
But are the therapists right in saying hocd means I am not gay and PoCD means I am not a pedophile
yes
@the_uncertainty_accepter So why are some people on here saying you can have HOcD and realised you are Gay
Do you have Reddit ? We can chat there as I donāt know how to chat here
No , I have instagram
@Sp1999 Alright whatās your ig ?
@Someonepleasehelp 222_sp
@Sp1999 Ukiyo?
@Someonepleasehelp Yes
@Someonepleasehelp Its a Japanese meaning that kinda helps me
Hello, i know its late but i did have one question, is Hocd actually beatable? Like can you fully recover from it? Menajng no more false attraction, no more it feels real, i have confidenve im not gay but straight, no more doubts, basically meaning can you beat HOCD?
I donāt know what to do with this bs anymore. Iām crying again and again and again and again. I cannot describe how painful this is. Iāve recovered from every single OCD subtype expect this one. HOCD is so scary and itās so incredibly scary how it feels so real. The issue with this subtype is how intertwined it is with feelings and sensations. I hate how it keeps latching onto the past and uses the past as proof. I donāt want it to be the truth. I donāt want to accept any possibility.
Iāve been struggling with HOCD for years, and it started with an intrusive thought about being gay when I was younger. It came up at age 12 and ever since, Iāve been trapped in a cycle of doubt and anxiety. I obsess over whether or not Iām secretly gay, even though I donāt feel that way at all. What makes it worse is the fear that I might have internalized homophobia, and thatās why Iām having these obsessive thoughts. I worry that my anxiety is a sign that Iām repressing something or rejecting part of myself. It feels like my mind keeps repeating the same questionāam I gay?āand no matter how much reassurance I get, the fear doesnāt go away. I used to pray for my family members, fearing that if I didnāt, something bad would happen to them, and now it feels like I have to control these thoughts, or something will go wrong. For a while, it was quieter, but a week ago, the thoughts spiraled up again, and now the anxiety feels overwhelming again. Itās exhausting, and I donāt know how to break free from this constant loop of doubt. Has anyone dealt with the fear of internalized homophobia alongside HOCD? How do you manage the anxiety that comes with it?
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