can’t do this. can’t do this. i’m a 14 year old girl this shouldn’t be happening. my brain won’t even let me believe that i want to be good. it says that i won’t care if i’m bad. ughhh

The good thoughts could be testing what your brain thinks so much that it's overwhelming it. Maybe tho I'm not sure sorry since I have no clue of your situation. But that is my best guess.

If you have a therapist maybe talk to them to make sure. But for me when u get intrusive thoughts (I say this all the time in here lol) I give my OCD a name and tell it to shut up because that isn't me or that I have things to focus on other than this. Challenging it will feel bad but in the end it's helping you rearrange your brain cells to how they react so... yes I would recommend challenging your self

Even if you feel teribble know that you are working hard to overcome this and not going backwards even if it might feel like it

It will you are strong!!! If you need more help or anything from me just come back onto this thing and I'll talk to you if I'm free (I'll bookmark it and everything ?)

Your OCD is not you no matter how much it tries to tell you otherwise. The fact that you are so upset that your brain could be right shows that it isn’t. You are strong and you will get through this. It’s hard, but deep down you know yourself. If you want to be good it’s because you are good no matter what intrusive thoughts your brain might throw at you.

When my brain makes me second guess myself I think about what I really want even if my brain says I'm wrong. That is the real you. The part that knows your brain shouldnt be believe that you are bad is the real you. Your OCD is stopping you from believing that you can be good but you are good. You know that and that's why there is a battle. Not even a battle because you are you despite what OCD says

but for some reason whenever i do think about “good” things i get bad anxiety?? what does this mean?

so should i keep challenging the thoughts? with like “no i want to be good i don’t care what you say or how my stomach feels i won’t do these things i’m not attracted to this horrible thing”

thank you so much. i hope it works (my brain just said “no you don’t” and my stomach went “grr”)

thank you so much!

i am also here if you ever want to talk! i definitely feel this way too sometimes, you are NOT alone!

thank you, i’m scared that the intrusive thoughts aren’t bothering me anymore