BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

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I'm seriously starting to hate that my mind is going after the experience I had working with children in the summer. I never wanted that job in the first place because of things exactly like this. I remember stupid intrusive thoughts popping up even while I was at the job. It kept targeting one kid with the most sickening thoughts that I honestly don't even want to type out and most times when I saw that kid I was just disturbed at times and uncomfortable. Now that it's over and I'm not dealing with it anymore it's trying to convince me of things that are flat out horrible and sick that I don't want to be true even though it feels like it is What makes this worse is that I'm someone who struggles with p*** addiction and occasional lusting makes this so much fucking worse. I really can't stand that I deal with this yet it's still hard to let go of. The sexual thoughts are what make intrusive thoughts worse than any other kind

OCDHaver

Date posted: 2y

It’s your mind attacking you, based off of previous posts you’ve made, it seems like you’re doing better, and that’s when OCD likes to attack, I constantly get intrusive thoughts too, I’m a cashier and a lot of times kids are there to buy whatever, I struggle a lot with intrusive thoughts in those moments as well, but they’re just thoughts, thoughts hurt no one. It’s your mind trying to get to you, just focus on what’s currently going on in your life

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

I guess I'm just getting backdoor spikes now. I would say I am doing better. I'm reaching out for help, I'm noticing unhelpful changes that I've been having growing up, and I'm just trying to take note of it. Yesterday morning, it felt like I had little to no intrusive thoughts but it still persists in some ways. Something about the act of reaching out I guess helped me a lot here. I'm hoping one day you can make that same decision with the requirements needed. Thanks for your comment

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

I also hope you've been doing better as well

OCDHaver

Date posted: 2y

@BigGip09 Hopefully so, but don’t worry, I’m right there with you, my OCD is bad since it’s reaching the anniversary of when my OCD first became unbearable, but I suppose all we can do is move forward I suppose, take care

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

@OCDHaver Sorry to hear about that recent comment. It seems like you've been getting better with managing your OCD and that makes you strong, not weak. OCD is trying to talk about the intrusive thoughts of my the post I made here again. All I can do is ignore it and let it say whatever it wants

Ghost123

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I literally avoid looking at kids now

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

@yup_its_ocd Right, listen to him. This is a compulsions that will only make your OCD stronger. Instead, look at kids and let your OCD say whatever it wants until they go away

Ghost123

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@BigGip09 When I look at kids, I become fixated and a voice in my head says deviant things. So I get uncomfortable and then look away. But you’re right, I don’t want to give OCD a bigger voice.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

@Ghost123 Just take whatever it says as thoughts and sit through it. It's going to suck but this is your chance to counter OCD and show your mind and body that you can handle the thoughts, no matter how horrible they are. You already know you won't act on it. You wouldn't be here second guessing the thoughts if you were that kind of person, but you're not. That's what I like to think

Ghost123

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@BigGip09 That’s true. I actually s*lf harmed once because of those thoughts. That’s when I started seeking NOCD.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

@Ghost123 I'm glad you took that as a step get help, man. It's not good to keep that to yourself. I'm sure you'll get the help you need and you'll overcome this. It can be really difficult to do but not impossible.

grellen2000

Date posted: 21w

Intrusive thoughts (21+ please)

I need advice for intrusive thoughts. I used to feel like I could handle them. They weren’t nearly as bad as the things that related to my actual life. But now, I’m suffering. I haven’t had a sexual experience in over a year that didn’t involve constant intrusive thoughts. Most are somehow related to kids and I keep chasing off the thoughts but it’s so bad. I know you’re supposed to ignore them but I don’t know how I can just ignore that and continue what I’m doing. But they’re coming on stronger. I had one earlier I could not get rid of just as things finished so the thought came on strongly just before my orgasm hit and now I feel absolutely disgusting. I hated the thought and I know it’s not me and it was not enjoyable but it still feels like I was getting off to it. I feel sick. I’m so fucking tired of these thoughts. They’re in my every day life too and it’s all the time. I just want it to stop but ignoring it feels so wrong. What should I do?

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 21w

Help

I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.

Lulu~

Date posted: 20w

Someone please help me right now

I’m a csa survivor which made me develop hypersexuality while actually being a asexual individual. (Where I did CP and talked to groomers and sexted, ect ect) A few months ago I’ve started to heal, but the fact that I’ve seen so many private parts since I was idk, young? I imagine them everywhere, it’s really frustrating and sometimes I also get intrusive thoughts about other kids or my siblings. It’s deeply distributing but I also kind of think of it from a curious kind of aspect which I despise too. Honestly I have a hard time with any kid in underwear, my intrusive thoughts have been ALOT the last months and they’re really really overwhelming. I also easily go into overanalysing them or even trying to figure out more clearer the thoughts to “test myself”. I think, I hope. Idk it’s scary

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