Hocdthinker
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- 6y
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
I feel like that, even though I have been attracted to women all my life and have been in two serious relationships and the last one I thought I was going to marry that girl. Hocd really has taken a huge toll on my life, like everything was a lie but I know it’s not. Sometimes when I’m not obsessing about the thoughts it just feels like I’ve accepted I’m gay and I get in a terrible mood that other people sometimes notice.
HocdthinkerHocdthinker
- Date posted
- 6y
It really feels like my whole life was a lie atleast before i felt distress and high anxiety...
HocdthinkerHocdthinker
- Date posted
- 6y
Maybe i should just not seek reassurance and see then.
MikeWietechaMikeWietecha
- Date posted
- 6y
I've been dealing with it for a long time as well man. The last few days, I've actually felt my attraction to women returning. I dont know exactly how I have progressed to this, but I have been trying to do ERP recently and it's working. I told myself I will truly give it my all for 30 days, and if I feel no absolute change, I probably don't have OCD. I am already feeling better. Find a reliable therapist or at least a workbook to keep you regimented and focused. If you can find a friend to confide in that will actually understand what you're doing and help you treat yourself, that would be ideal
MikeWietechaMikeWietecha
- Date posted
- 6y
From my understanding, I don't think being gay would come and go. Have you been trying ERP? I've been noticing a change, which makes me comfortable saying it's OCD
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edimichael
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- 21w
acceptance
it feels like i accepted being gay and thats part of who i am but i still feel that tension and fake attraction whenever i see a man and i feel like i could be able to have a sexual intercourse with a man even though i dont want it is it still hocd or just denial? like i am feeling okey but there is still that doubt that how can i know that im not gay if i dont get disgusted by gay things or gay personality traits and at the same time i want to feel normal again like before
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- 21w
Feels so real
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anonymous00981
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- 18w
Triggered
I watched the trailer for the movie “Am I Ok?” and got completely triggered. Basically a 32 yo woman discovers she’s a lesbian seemingly out of nowhere. I was triggers and did some research (bad idea) and apparently some people who are gay have never had romantic or sexual interest in people of the same sex until one spontaneous moment of discovery. Now I’m worried that this could be me!! I’ve never had a long term relationship, have had crushes and fantasies but back out when things get too close for me. I do prefer my little fantasy world guy but now I’m wondering if maybe I missed something and am in denial, even if I didn’t know it.
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