Hocdthinker
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- 6y
IannIann
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- 6y
I feel like that, even though I have been attracted to women all my life and have been in two serious relationships and the last one I thought I was going to marry that girl. Hocd really has taken a huge toll on my life, like everything was a lie but I know it’s not. Sometimes when I’m not obsessing about the thoughts it just feels like I’ve accepted I’m gay and I get in a terrible mood that other people sometimes notice.
HocdthinkerHocdthinker
- Date posted
- 6y
It really feels like my whole life was a lie atleast before i felt distress and high anxiety...
HocdthinkerHocdthinker
- Date posted
- 6y
Maybe i should just not seek reassurance and see then.
MikeWietechaMikeWietecha
- Date posted
- 6y
I've been dealing with it for a long time as well man. The last few days, I've actually felt my attraction to women returning. I dont know exactly how I have progressed to this, but I have been trying to do ERP recently and it's working. I told myself I will truly give it my all for 30 days, and if I feel no absolute change, I probably don't have OCD. I am already feeling better. Find a reliable therapist or at least a workbook to keep you regimented and focused. If you can find a friend to confide in that will actually understand what you're doing and help you treat yourself, that would be ideal
MikeWietechaMikeWietecha
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- 6y
From my understanding, I don't think being gay would come and go. Have you been trying ERP? I've been noticing a change, which makes me comfortable saying it's OCD
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Anonymous123
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- 24w
Thoughts make sense
I've always found women pretty and admired them since I was younger, never wanted to be with them or anything. I always pictured having a boyfriend and my crushes were always boys. I have a boyfriend now but because this has happened I feel nothing towards him or any men. To be honest I'm so exhausted I don't feel much at all, there was so much anxiety at the start and now there is none. Does that mean I have accepted the thoughts. My mind keeps going you were suppressed all these years but I do find women pretty so that's what's making it worse. Am I just in denial and being delusional? I never doubted my sexuality before this I always considered myself to be straight but I feels like my mind has been twisted and can't remember any attraction to guys but can remember thinking girls are pretty? Does this mean it's all real? I don't know anymore
Anonymous123
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- 23w
I'm so convinced it's just denial
I feel sick to my stomach, a few days ago I knew I was straight and could picture my life with my bf again. The anxiety has really lessend and Im more depressed now. I'm 100% convinced I am lesbian even tho I have never had sexual attraction to women, found them pretty but never wanted to be with them. My mind is only picturing me being with women now and it feels like a pit in my stomach. I don't feel emotion now, I'm also on my period. I don't want to be lesbian. I want to be with my boyfriend and have the life I pictured with him. My memory is so dissorted right now. I don't think there's anything wrong with being lesbian, it's just not for me and now that makes me feel like I'm homophobic.
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edimichael
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- 17w
acceptance
it feels like i accepted being gay and thats part of who i am but i still feel that tension and fake attraction whenever i see a man and i feel like i could be able to have a sexual intercourse with a man even though i dont want it is it still hocd or just denial? like i am feeling okey but there is still that doubt that how can i know that im not gay if i dont get disgusted by gay things or gay personality traits and at the same time i want to feel normal again like before
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