Hocdthinker
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- 6y
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
I feel like that, even though I have been attracted to women all my life and have been in two serious relationships and the last one I thought I was going to marry that girl. Hocd really has taken a huge toll on my life, like everything was a lie but I know it’s not. Sometimes when I’m not obsessing about the thoughts it just feels like I’ve accepted I’m gay and I get in a terrible mood that other people sometimes notice.
HocdthinkerHocdthinker
- Date posted
- 6y
It really feels like my whole life was a lie atleast before i felt distress and high anxiety...
HocdthinkerHocdthinker
- Date posted
- 6y
Maybe i should just not seek reassurance and see then.
MikeWietechaMikeWietecha
- Date posted
- 6y
I've been dealing with it for a long time as well man. The last few days, I've actually felt my attraction to women returning. I dont know exactly how I have progressed to this, but I have been trying to do ERP recently and it's working. I told myself I will truly give it my all for 30 days, and if I feel no absolute change, I probably don't have OCD. I am already feeling better. Find a reliable therapist or at least a workbook to keep you regimented and focused. If you can find a friend to confide in that will actually understand what you're doing and help you treat yourself, that would be ideal
MikeWietechaMikeWietecha
- Date posted
- 6y
From my understanding, I don't think being gay would come and go. Have you been trying ERP? I've been noticing a change, which makes me comfortable saying it's OCD
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- 24w
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I watched the trailer for the movie “Am I Ok?” and got completely triggered. Basically a 32 yo woman discovers she’s a lesbian seemingly out of nowhere. I was triggers and did some research (bad idea) and apparently some people who are gay have never had romantic or sexual interest in people of the same sex until one spontaneous moment of discovery. Now I’m worried that this could be me!! I’ve never had a long term relationship, have had crushes and fantasies but back out when things get too close for me. I do prefer my little fantasy world guy but now I’m wondering if maybe I missed something and am in denial, even if I didn’t know it.
Lakeys.25
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- 23w
this feels like denial now 😭😭
im so scared that this is just denial and that im actuall gay. idk what to do anymore i need help. its just constant anxiety in my chest and i hate it. is there anything i can do to help?
g_rangel
- Date posted
- 22w
spiraling again.
i had recently been triggered to have so-ocd. its been on my mind non-stop. (i am a heterosexual female) and my mind has been all over the place questioning if i have been in denial the entire time. ive always had people tell me they sort of got that vibe it it never really affected me until my own mother had her suspicions. so i would constantly get triggered un public around the same gender, while knowing my true sexuality. ive always been attracted to men but as of recently ive been having super bad anxiety to where i cannot eat or sleep and feel weak all the time. it was like that for a week or so. now im in the calm where i have been trying accept the uncertainty but it still isnt fair as im getting triggered. im a little worried because it feels like i have been lying to my parents the entire time although ive never had the desire to be with the same gender. and i keep getting intrusive thoguhts that make me feel anxious and uncomfortable. its all starting to affect my friendships as im constantly getting triggered with the intrusive thoguhts. i feel a little less anxious compared to how i was a couple days ago. im really scared on why im having these thoughts now when i have been having romantic feelings for a guy the past year or so. ive also been struggling with false attraction and loss attraction to men. it makes me feel uncertain of my life the entire time
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