I am having surgery on Friday and they called me today and told me my husband has to leave and can’t stay because of Covid. I am so nervous he can’t be there. I am afraid I am going to have a panic attack and the what ifs, like I am going to hurt someone. So scared. Any advice

Really really struggling I feel like I need to scream cry run and hide I cannot stop obsessing about my husband he makes me feel anxious uncomfortable etc He cuddled me last night and I felt weird I don’t get it I’m so confused and worried to death I had an appointment at work today I cancelled couldn’t bare the thought of going somewhere and pretending to be present I’m not enjoying food doing anything going anywhere physical contact with my husband and being with him is making me question him constantly I’m dreading the weekend at home with him I just don’t know what to do Do I love him anymore should I leave should I run away I cannot cope with these feelings any longer I’m seeing a counsellor Monday had my meds increased and not drank alcohol in 11 days and I drank very regular This episode all started from a panic attack non related 3 weeks ago

I was supposed to get my second COVID vaccine this weekend that I had been putting off for a while due to horrible anxiety. I ended up getting the stomach flu so I have to postpone it again… In the meantime I have been spiraling about getting the shot. My thoughts are constantly “you are going to die. You are going to get heart inflammation. It’s documented that people have died from it and you will be one of them” it literally feels like getting it will be the end of my life. I have spent the past few days crying all day long about how it will be the end for me. I feel like I can’t handle getting it and knowing that I could be about to get a potentially deadly side effect. Does anyone have any advice? I’ve ceased all compulsions like googling, etc but even setting a new appointment sends me into doomsday panic. I’m leaving on my honeymoon in a month and I don’t know what to do. Thank you for any help you can give.

I am freaking out with panic. It feels like I want to or have to hurt my boyfriend and it’s causing me to have the worst panic attack I’ve had in a while. It feels like I should be in a mental institution and all I want to do is cry. I know at a time like this I need to lean into the anxiety but I’m absolutely terrified. Please. Anyone. Words of wisdom or encouragement. It feels so different than normal and of course I’m so worried this is not OCD. how could it be? It’s so convincing and scary.