Please make it stop

you are not alone!! good days will come. and unfortunately, the bad ones do too. I try to remember all the beautiful things in life outside my OCD, they are all still there even on the worst days. I’ve been crying a lot lately too. May you find peace, may you be happy, may you be safe and healthy. Please don’t give up and hold out for a better day soon. Much love

Hey I just saw that you commented that you wanted to talk, I’m really sorry you’re panicking right now. I’ve been in that position you’re in many times, I’m still just getting out of an attack a couple of days ago. I do remember what you told me upper struggling with, I’m going to try to not give you reassurance since we both know how terrible it can be, it feels good for a second but quickly fades and makes the OCD worse. What helps me is remembering who I am, I’ve made a lot mistakes and have been really dumb, but I know my values have always been more or less the same, and they only get better as I grow older, you were 18-19, you did the best with what you knew and your intentions aren’t what you’re brain is making up right now. We can’t change the past but we can live in our current values. You’re a good person, you care and that’s what’s making you suffer, it’s the OCD, allow the asshole to say what it wants, imagine it as a bully harassing you, the more you engage and react to the bully, the harder and more frequent the bully will harass you, by standing firm and not giving in and allowing the OCD to just do what it wants. It’s the hardest damn thing to do, but it’s the only way to recovery, just know I’m rooting for you and that better days will come