Anonymously2
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MotherOfBeansMotherOfBeans
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- 3y
All of our obsessions relate to a fear. So you may have one or many fears regarding relationships. For me rOCD is so confusing because it just feels like my brain is a jumbled anxious mess and it was so hard to imagine it being anything but coming from me. Now that treatment is kicking in, it’s so much easier for me to identify a thought as an obsession or a thought ir desire to talk to my partner as compulsion. It takes time and focus, but once the dust cleared a little it felt like I found myself again.
Anonymously2 Anonymously2
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@Nikki86 Thank you, I will talk about this with my therapist hope he can help me identify the thoughts and what I can do about it
Nicolas:)Nicolas:)
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Nope, ROCD it's the fear of lossing one's partner, and you fear that cause you really value that relationship, for whatever reason, but you do. Fear of commitment its when you don't want to accept the responsabilities and downs that come by the fact of being in a relationship
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Perzibal I mean yea but ROCD had more than just fear of loosing your partner. For instance you can think that you don’t love your partner and really question it or overthink the fact of whether they truly love you or not.
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@pettie Yes exactly that what I have now, do I feel enough and do I want this etc
AnonymousAnonymous
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@San2 But sometimes it’s me genuinely asking me like I can’t lie to myself either you know. Like there’s truly things that I don’t like about my partner( ex now ) I know I love him but I then I think about the things that I don’t like and then overthink whether I really wanted it or not. Then it makes me feel like he doesn’t truly love me or me to him because the ideal person in my head isn’t the one I’m seeing. Idk if that makes sense
Anonymously2 Anonymously2
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@pettie Yes that makes sense. I just doubt it really bad because I’m still so young and because of my past relationship, he cheated and I found out just now. And he treated me like shir
AnonymousAnonymous
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@San2 Yea I understand. You see the guy I just broke up with out of compulsion chafed on me a while back, not physically but did revive pics from his ex. I’ve known him since for 12 years now and you know peoples morals. I forgave him and I believe he genuinely feel sorry and put in his effort to try and better our relationship but because he broke my trust and I’m insecure I would get anxious all the time and then alongside OCD that didn’t help one but so Inwoukd always think, did he truly mean he was sorry or he just like those assholes who lie, months later our relationship was shaky because of our insecurity and my OCD. Right now I see him so hurt that he shuts me out and acts like he no longer cares and I overthink that. Makes me feel like the whole relationship was a lie and he was just trying to get rid of me. So I constantly still seek for reassurance and he communicates how he truly feels which is hurt because I continually talked down on him and let my anger get out on him when he was truly trying to change and then I come to realize OCD and mistrust plays a big part in the whole relationship where I feel like I could never be in one again
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 3y
@pettie Even now the thought still lingers whether he was telli my the truth or not and it replays in my head constantly. So overall ( sorry for the long text) ocd could lead to fear of commitment and it could also be just that it’s your OCD
Anonymously2 Anonymously2
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@Anonymous I feel you, I had that too. He wasn’t good for me either and I got extra anxious because of that but now my trust is broken
Anonymously2 Anonymously2
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@Anonymous Yeah I have it too, it keeps replaying and you ruminate about everything
Anonymously2 Anonymously2
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@Anonymous I think it’s both my ocd and fear of commitment. But ocd is a fear disorder
AnonymousAnonymous
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It can be several things. Fear of commitment could be something from ROCD or it could be you being scared to be in a relationship because of some other variables.
Anonymously2 Anonymously2
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@pettie My therapist spoke to me about the fact that I’m scared that people will leave me, so I guess it has to do with that. But I don’t know I just feel a lot of anxiety atm
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 3y
@San2 It could be that yes. It’s normal to feel that way though with or without OCD
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- 21w
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- Date posted
- 20w
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EmmaGrace27
- Date posted
- 13w
ROCD
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