- Date posted
- 3y
Rant + Advice?
I feel guilty for thinking a guy friend looks better with his hair cut, I feel like I found him attractice (I am not *attracted* tho) but i dont even want that bc i feel its cheating. My boyfriend doesn't like this guy because he said something rude to me once and he thinks he likes me. He's currently mad that I agreed after saying no a bunch of times when this friend asked for a ride home in the future despite me knowing my bf doesn't like the dude and wouldn't like me giving him a ride to home. I honestly don't want to be anybodys ride home, but we live in the same small town so it wouldn't be out of my way and I said I'd only do it if it worked with my hours since we would leave from the same place. I don't want to find this guy attractive but the combination of this mixed with the ride home just makes me feel shitty. I feel like I was checking this guy out (because i did look at him but I didnt mean it like that idk if that makes sense like no such intent) and I think I did I guess but that makes me even more anxious. I do not like this guy, do not want to like him, do not want to be with him, nor want to find him as a good looking guy. Most of all i don't want to disrespect my bf and when we were talking about it I felt like I was getting defensive and it made me feel anxious bc I've already had intrusive thoughts abt cheating on this matter. My bf is now mad at me.