OCD making you feel like you like the thought

Im little calmer now then yesterday so i can think about what i write. So i read about ocd and people say ocd can make you feel like you want the thought to happen, my question is in my situation having Suicidal Ocd, how i can decide if ocd makes me feel like i want to do that/why i could do that, or its the real suicidal thoughts/ideations? This is what i thinked now, if ocd makes you think like you want that thought, then it can make you think why you could do that why is okay and makes you feel like its okay, then after that you realize what you thought and you feel guilty. Am I right or no?

Seneca18

Date posted: 2y

Yes, I’ve had that feeling before with harm OCD, it’s extremely upsetting and makes me feel guilty, scared and shameful.

woahman

Date posted: 2y

Idk im kinda confused now idk if i have ocd or passive thoughts because of anxiety... its clear for me that i dont want to hurt myself... but it will be good to know what i have cause you treat the two things differently

Locna

Date posted: 2y

People don't tell you some OCD is soothing or comforting. It's the next bit that follows with shame. Because you gave into the impulse to self soothe.

woahman

Date posted: 2y

Idk what i have, some people say i real sucidal thoughts, some people say i have ocd... when i get the thought i feel like its real cause it comes when i feel hopeless about something, but then im aware what im thinking and then i try to see if would really do it, thats the ocd thing, then thoughts say yes i would and makes me feel like i would i have feelings of calmness then i realize this isnt good and i start to feel anxious and guilty... im trying to find out if its ocd or not but i end up lost in it then i feel like that what i would do and want it then awarness comes and i get anxious,guilty and in the past depressed...i read the same thing on the internet, on an ocd video someone on youtube wrote the same thing what im experiencing

Locna

Date posted: 2y

@woahman If you don't want them. It's OCD.

woahman

Date posted: 2y

@Imherenow I read that real suicidal thought feels scary too like people are scared they going to act on them... so idk then what makes difference...

Locna

Date posted: 2y

@woahman Try to remember, if you are catching the thoughts in your head, then you are filtering. That means YOU are filtering the OCD. Which means that YOU do not want to think those things. It's not you it's the condition of OCD.

woahman

Date posted: 2y

@Pillows I do not want to but after some researching i find that i might have passive suicidal thoughts cause i went through some hard times... i do not want to end my life, and im scared of these thoughts, but i see and i can imagine what ocd is now, and i had that probably, its just a thought that makes you scared and youre anxious, but mine came after bad experiences and entertaining negative thoughts like i will never recover from an illness i had and then thoughts like "i dont want to suffer, maybe if i k*ll myself it will be better", of course this made me depressed cause i dont want to but it generated from hopelessness so its a real one not ocd fear...

chick2004

Date posted: 8w

@woahman I feel like I’m going through this right now, did it get better for you?

Locna

Date posted: 2y

All of our fears and uncertainties are real. It's all about empathy. It's called your truth. https://youtu.be/1Evwgu369Jw

cows12465

Date posted: 24w

suic. ocd tips

so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.

cows12465

Date posted: 24w

suic. ocd advice?

Conquering_OCD

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Knowing the difference

Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.

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