Currently with a girl I love or at least I feel I do / anyone know how to deal with the anxiety of feeling like you will get intrusive thoughts / images around your partner ? And how to deal with those thank you
Same bro I ended up in the hospital from this bs / it litteraly is all bs just hard to get the bs out of your head lol
Facts bro !
@Sp1999 You get anxiety too whenever you are gonna hang with her or talk to her ?
@jzepedaa7 Yup
@jzepedaa7 / what are the kinds of images / thoughts you get
Also not looking for reasurance at all just for some tips š
I think sheās beautiful and amazing I just get anxiety feeling that when we hang out I will get the thoughts and images
These thoughts aren't you. The actions are you.
@Pillows Iām aware of that brother itās just the thoughts are annoying and when sheās talking thereās a voice in the back of my head saying gay and it just makes being with her hard you know Iām aware they arenāt me just annoying to deal with
@Pillows Just feels like Iām never really fully there you know I have to dig deep to listen to her past my own thoughts
@jzepedaa7 I hear you. Perhaps sharing with her your struggle would help. Communication and support may be what you require. A big part of life that OCD robs you of is, trust. Often we feel shame. It can be debilitating and draining. My partner told me that I am okay to be broken and never should I force my pieces back together. Each piece has a place and anything less can be damaging to my persona and to others. Sharp edges and gaps can be damaging. Be okay to be imperfect. I can tell your a good egg. You care about others above your own well-being. Be aware that isn't always making your partner happy. Love is a choice. OCD causes duress so making choices isn't best during those times. Try to remember what your goals are and with therapy have a heart to heart with yourself. My brother is gay and happily married. That's what he wanted but it sounds as if that's not what U want. Goals help you to line up your desires.
@Pillows Yea I told her everything and sheās supportive itās just super hard I want to be there for her too but Iām struggling myself and donāt want to lose her . I would also have no issues being gay but thatās the tricky thing with this OCD is I donāt think I am you know itās just a big loop
Dude ive been through it all man, I try to just do it anyways and try my best to ignore ocd
@Sp1999 You got a girl also ?
@jzepedaa7 Yes , we have been together for 2 years
@jzepedaa7 Itās crazy bro I donāt understand why I donāt want to lose her even with these thoughts thatās why I feel like I really like her you know
@Sp1999 Nice brother Iām glad I got someone in a similar situation as me . I hope to one day get married with her have kids and put this behind us . Have you told her about your problem ? I have my anxiety got so high I didnāt want to lose her so I told her
@jzepedaa7 Yeah man me to ! And hopefully it will get behind you man, you deserve a happy life. She knows everything from the day it started to being sent to a hospital and then coming out to deal with the same bs man
Jeez man this shits tough I just want to stop but itās been way better than before tho. The thought/urge āIām gayā is still going on lol I feel like it subsiding tho Iām able to go places and still doing erp and stuff nothing has happened maybe it will maybe it wonāt
@GSR I feel you bro Iām also feeling better . One thing that helps me is just live your life as you normally would and donāt let the thoughts affect you bc they arenāt real or donāt represent you š
@jzepedaa7 Also Iām going to the gym and playing soccer and I missed so much donāt let these thought define you too bro. Iām starting to date and talking to girls. Itās not something that you need too do itās somthing that I want to do. Keep at guys
@GSR Yup I battled this for 10 years but for the first time in those 10 years I feel like Iām figuring it out and have hope , also started hitting the gym again and I hung out with my girlfriend today went better then expected š
@jzepedaa7 Happy for you bro. Right Iām always a little ruminating and saying words about women I should really stop doing that it think the fear of me not saying and something may happen but Imm work on that . Yeah like I have struggled with relationships with women like sometimes youāre like what if I donāt like them but I know itās a bunch of nonsense I hope one day that this will subside for a long time. I really get shy around girls and something I have always but j never forget the feeling of being with them.
@GSR You said it yourself bro itās a bunch of non sense . All of it . Every thought that doesnāt align with how you really feel isnāt real . Thoughts are not you and you are not your brain
@jzepedaa7 Yeah man. But way better Forsure. I wasnāt go to parties but right now Iām just okay. There times that the thoughts has slowed down and times that spike but I know one day this would just be a memory I can feel it
@jzepedaa7 Damn 10 yearsā¦Iāve been dealing this since may of this year. Damn bro props to you bro hang in there. I will also too bro it will subside everything has and expiration date bro
I donāt know what to do anymore, this started nearly a year ago and caused so much stress and panic attacks over the thought of loosing my boyfriend. Now it just feels real and that he always liked girls and suppressed it (but like the boys i always liked in the past were real feelings they had to be and with my boyfriend i love him) but i havenāt got much anxiety now feels like i want the thoughts and that they donāt bother me even tho they used to, this seems to happen every time i get a lil better, idk just feels so true and thatās what i acc want with no stress, just a lil scared.
Iāve recovered from HOCD before and got my attraction and my usual actual identity back. I was recovered from end 2022- start 2025 until I got triggered UGHHHš My HOCD is REALLY trying to convince me and itās SO annoying cause I genuinely donāt want these thoughts. I know I naturally like men and always have done so. I canāt wait for my first therapy session in two days Omg! I need your advice, not necessarily reassurance, but more advice? My HOCD is throwing random āproofā I did/ saw as a child in my face, which back then had no meaning in my life and I continued to live a perfectly heterosexual life. Iāve educated myself about arousal non concordance / childās play, but it still doesnāt remove the HOCD. Iāve read therapists great explanations on how itās not a sexuality issue, BUT ITS AN OCD BRAIN ISSUE. So basically Iāve been straight and i will die as straight. But my ocd is still continuing with the intrusive thoughts/flashbacks. Iāve had some moments where I havenāt done as many compulsions and had less anxiety but still had those damn thoughts and I DO NOT want those damn thoughts. I have so much proof and factual/logical explanations but HOCD is still continuing to thrive. I absolutely hate this and I feel so alone. I wish there was a reset button cause I donāt want these thoughts to happen. I want a man and I stand by that. How do yāall deal with these situations? Cause sitting with the thoughts is clearly not helping.
Iāve been struggling with HOCD for years, and it started with an intrusive thought about being gay when I was younger. It came up at age 12 and ever since, Iāve been trapped in a cycle of doubt and anxiety. I obsess over whether or not Iām secretly gay, even though I donāt feel that way at all. What makes it worse is the fear that I might have internalized homophobia, and thatās why Iām having these obsessive thoughts. I worry that my anxiety is a sign that Iām repressing something or rejecting part of myself. It feels like my mind keeps repeating the same questionāam I gay?āand no matter how much reassurance I get, the fear doesnāt go away. I used to pray for my family members, fearing that if I didnāt, something bad would happen to them, and now it feels like I have to control these thoughts, or something will go wrong. For a while, it was quieter, but a week ago, the thoughts spiraled up again, and now the anxiety feels overwhelming again. Itās exhausting, and I donāt know how to break free from this constant loop of doubt. Has anyone dealt with the fear of internalized homophobia alongside HOCD? How do you manage the anxiety that comes with it?
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