Tell me yours stories on how your hocd started

@Anonymous It happens it out of nowhere. It sucks keep moving forward it will go away a it it will get better

@Anonymous Yeah keep humor. This one won’t change trust na like doesn’t make sense. Right I’m will get my confidence back with girls so like I wouldn’t be able to get this ever again. If so I can attack it.

@GSR Does your hocd convince you that you were attracted to guys before hocd even though you never were ?

@Someonepleasehelp It reminds me things in the past like. My friend touched my hand I was like wtf back off he was playing around and my hocd just reminds since I really feel uncomfortable with that stuff it sort of attacks you in that way. Other than that no. It’s different in end for others.

@Someonepleasehelp Damn man yeah. It’s hocd for sure bro. This came out nowhere for me too bro. It’s tough for me because I’m 21 I never had a girlfriend and it really upsets me I was always shy with girls but like I was always trying to hit on them or flirt with them because I like them lol. But it’s those what ifs. I also think porn f’d me up to because I used to watch every day. I stopped when I started going through this because it is bad when going through this.

@GSR Well mine is complicated but I’ll try lol well I was once a heavy porn user and was in a relationship. I was playing video games late at night then all of the sudden I just started getting these thoughts and eventually it just came to “what if I’m gay” and I had a huge panic attack started having every symptom of hocd then it lead to me believing that I was attracted to my friend despite me never being interested in him in any way and it’s still with me it’s like everytime I do something the thought of being attracted comes to me and it causes me a lot of distress, can’t sleep alone because I’m afraid The flood of thoughts is gonna come again and I hate how I have no anxiety anymore or I do but I don’t notice it so it’s much harder than before. Weird thing is when I first discovered hocd I had a huge relief and then forgot about it for a week or 2 then all of the sudden I had another flood and relapsed super hard sucks that my ex girlfriend cheated on those weeks I was “relieved” life hasn’t been the same ever since.

@Someonepleasehelp My life to bro. This destroyed my fun of going to parties. Play soccer I’m a communications major and this has ruined that also I enjoyed talking to people I was always a talkative person it’s cool and also I started getting into public speaking also and this sure has destroyed it but I have hope on getting back. I started school and the first week was nerve racking but I started going more I’m getting more used to it bro

@GSR Yeah I get you, I’m always avoiding people my head tries to convince me I’m attracted to which has me in a lot of fear honestly.

@Someonepleasehelp Don’t do that bro that’s a bad thing to do. Don’t avoid watch movies with a gay theme or somthin like modern family or something.

@GSR I’m trying to and now it’ll be harder cause I can’t see the person my head thinks I’m attracted to so i can’t do erp on that which I’ll have to find out a way

@GSR I’m trying to but my hocd is super fixated on my friend and I really hate it cause I don’t want him in any way

@GSR Yeah I’m trying to figure out what causes me distress so I can do exposures even though I have no therapist lol

@Someonepleasehelp Yeah man. Aye if you need help I’m here bro. Yeah I’m not a therapist but I’m paying and seeing hocd specialist. His techniques are helping a lot Forsure.

@GSR What are some techniques he taught you for things that try and convince you ?