18+ I’m really freaking out

Last night I was trying to go to sleep and I heard strange inappropriate sounding noises coming from my moms room. Her room is right next to mine and I don’t think it was what I thought it was but my mind immediately tried to fill in the sound as that thing and I kept having intrusive images and when I heard the strange sounds, My body immediately got really tense and I think I experienced the groinal response but not sure and now I keep having thoughts that because I had intrusive strange images about my mom and my mind also keeps telling me I was turned by it or aroused and I really hope that’s not true. If anything I felt really anxious and scared when it happened but my body and mind immediately reacted to the strange inappropriate sounding noises which probably was just her drinking a soda or something but I don’t know I’m rambling. I’m so anxious I feel a lot of guilt and I even kept waking up throughout the night feeling like something was wrong with me and the guilt just won’t go away. I really hope it’s not true and it was just the ocd messing with my head. I have to go to work and I don’t even want to get out of bed now I just keep hoping it’s not real.

"Pure" OCD

exit_flex

Date posted: 2y

Bless you… ocd attacks your values and can also make you feel physical sensations due to the ocd wanting to prove that you’re very worst thing you can think of. It’s really hard having the nagging doubting feelings and even though you may not believe this, it is just your ocd. Try your best not to engage with the ‘what ifs’ and ruminating, the anxiety will pass if you just sit with the thought and don’t explore it, as that’s a compulsion. I hope this helps xx

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@exit_flex Thank you I really appreciate it. I’m so stressed today because it literally felt so real as if I thought the thoughts on purpose or actually aroused it felt so real. My body got real tense and that’s when it all happened. Also felt zoned out when I had the intrusive thoughts and images pop up and then I tried to move on past it and it got so much stronger and now I’m scared of what if I’m a monster and I should stay away from my mom

exit_flex

Date posted: 2y

@Just Breathe ❤️ I totally get that, I sometimes only clock that I’m having intrusive thoughts too late! Something someone once told me is that if you’re worrying about something, it means it doesn’t align with your values so idk if that’s any help proving it’s just your ocd latching on to this intrusive thought. I’ve been there, being in a bubble of intense anxiety for days/weeks at a time and it’s horrendous, so I really feel for what you’re going through. Have you tried ERP therapy? I’ve just started it with NOCD and I can’t lie it’s helping me to at least understand ‘oh that’s my ocd ocding!’

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@exit_flex Yes I have a therapist through NOCD but I think she’s out on vacation which makes it really difficult. I also feel like I HAVE to confess or tell that person and because it’s about them I don’t want to tell them because it’s so embarrassing and scary so I guess that’s just something I need to realize is that I don’t need to confess everything even though my ocd will push me to the point where if I don’t I will feel like I’m going crazy but I made an agreement with myself that I wouldn’t tell the person if it’s about them to save embarrassment for me and them mostly. I just don’t know how to deal with this sometimes but I appreciate the help I truly do and thank you for responding and helping me not feel so alone

exit_flex

Date posted: 2y

@Just Breathe ❤️ Aww no worries! Yeah I get that, idk if this will help but my therapist said that with obsessions too strong to do my ‘maybe, maybe not’s with, just try distract yourself/do breathing exercises (for me personally this is just because I’m too early on with erp to deal with the worst obsessions), it is so so dreadful and hard to ignore though! You are absolutely not alone with the struggle and shame ocd makes us feel though, I’ve had similar obsessions and it’s torture! Especially when it’s about things that are so taboo

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@exit_flex The thing I think I’m going to have the worst time with is trying to not confess something that is ocd related but I’m going to try to work through it. Thank you so much for the help 🙏🏻🙂

exit_flex

Date posted: 2y

@Just Breathe ❤️ Resisting the urge to confess is the hardest!! But you’ve got this far so I definitely think you’ve got this 💪🏼

Magzzz

Date posted: 2y

@exit_flex Thank you I really hope so 🙂

tayanominous

Date posted: 24w

I’m scared does anyone else have these thoughts?

TW!!!! TW! Not talking abt SOCD in talking abt those really gross intrusive thoughts about sexual things with family ,friends, animals, random people. Mine is with family specifically my mom and I am so scared and my OCD is saying I actually want these thoughts to happen irl. I’m scared and these thoughts aren’t just the average incest thoughts there are sooo messed up it crazy, a few weeks ago I gas a thought that I was pregnant with that family member I mentioned before and I know ewwwwww wtf it’s sooo bad and I’m scared ppl will judge me for it in here or my therapist I’m so scared and it keeps adding to this thought like what it would be like if that were true and it’s sounds so crazy and gross and f****d up I feel so guilty and scared and I don’t wanna do ERP cuz I’m scared worse thoughts will come and your probably think well I can’t get worse then that but unfortunately it probably could anyways I’m sorry for ranting and pls pls reply cuz I feel rlly alone cuz I feel like no one gets THESE thoughts aghhh 😖

angel 🪽

Date posted: 19w

18+ kinda tmi and nsfw

18+ pls!!! pls reply if u can (superrrrr tmi, pls don’t read if it’ll make you uncomfortable) since struggling with ocd, i have rules around the likes of m^sturbation and sexual stuff because i think too much into it now. one of the rules is that exact day i cant have seen or been around children because otherwise ill get intrusive thoughts that ive done it because of that (it isnt and never has been, before all of this i was able to engage in this stuff without any worry because it never crossed my mind). i cant have seen one the day before either or the day after actually engaging in that stuff because otherwise my mind plays tricks on me. i wanted to yk today because it makes me tired and most of the time helps me sleep but im worried i cant now because my mum and i watched a show and there was a quick clip of a child in it and my for you page on tiktok is things related to the genocide in gaza which obviously on some posts has pictures too that i’ve seen while interacting with the posts (like, commenting and reposting. thought i should state this bc i dont want it to sound like i meant anything else) so because now ive seen them i feel incredibly guilty and that if i am to yk, they’ll somehow link and be proof im this bad person. (Also should state i mean m^sturbate to ADULT content, when i’ve seen these posts i haven’t got aroused or anything. i’m just worried that bc ive seen stuff related to children today it’ll be bad of me to engage in that sort of thing to help me sleep)

Idontknow

Date posted: 8w

18+ help me

I was on YouTube looking for saw traps I scenes and I see a saw 5 playlist and I was a bit horny because I was thinking of the guy I’m talking to and it’s like what if the playlist had inappropriate stuff on kids and I got arosal and then I got worried and went to see if there was stuff on kids there The gronial response gets intense I felt arousal because of the idea I might find content of kids there I think I’m a p how is this ocd I get worried when I open playlists or images because I’m going to think there’s inappropriate stuff and I don’t want to accidentally see it and I feel guilty afterwards I feel like I also touched my brother inappropriately I asked if I ever did anything he said no but what if he thinks it’s not wrong or he’s not telling me the truth

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