- Date posted
- 2y
I feel like I HAVE to
Is this even ocd or should I actually be worried because I had really horrible intrusive thoughts, images, false sensations that I’m so upset about and I really don’t want to have to tell my mom (who they were about usually categorized in the theme of insest OCD) because it’s so embarrassing and just horrible and I just got home and I’m around her and my mind won’t shut up trying to get me to talk to her and I usually tell her about my intrusive thoughts and if I’m really stressed out which usually results in her getting irritated at me for telling her all the time and her telling me I don’t have it but I hate when my mind is telling me I HAVE to or the feelings of guilt won’t go away. So I don’t know what to do. I feel terrible like I’m a horrible monster but I’ve always had intrusive thoughts about her and many other people but I always try so hard to not talk to her about the ones that are about her specifically. I don’t like them I hate them I’m upset and full of fear. I pray to God I don’t have to have that conversation with her but like I said it’s like there’s a bug in my ear that won’t stop until I “fix” it