HOCD people. I am doing more exposure therapy. Its been over a decade and only now am I really dealing with this in a meaningful way. I actually went to a massage center and they only had a male masseuse available. I usually would say no. I was able to get through the whole thing with almost no discomfort. I would have been a wreck before. I'm really happy for you others who share your story. I always doubted if I really had OCD or not, and having a community makes it so much easier. Thank you guys for making treatment possible

I'm so glad to hear these improvements stories :) wishing you a full recovery

Yes I'd like to hear them too. I'm not really getting good days but I hope that in the upcoming weeks things will get better. I love when people post their recovering stories cause it gives you hope

You too. Please let me know when you have good days. I know a lot of people post fears here, but I'd love to hear more about people getting better as well

Hey icandothis, I'd love to know which exposure therapy you've been doing? Have you done all of it on your own, or have you seen a therapist? Love having hope, and reading others success certainly helps!

@rile20 I'm doing it on my own. Im going to hire an online therapist next month. I've been so afraid to do that because I didn't know if I actually have OCD. I was afraid they were just going to tell me I need to deal with this. I got a massage from a man. I started listening to podcasts with homosexual hosts talking about gay lifestyle. I've been watching documentaries about gay people, and I started grappling again. I know it's not recommend to to erp on your own, but I had no choice. I'm gonna pay for a consult from Chrissie Hodges to find me an online therapist

Do you believe it's working for you? I've had hocd for almost a year, and the last few months have got better, although lately I don't feel as good as I have been! Obviously you've had hocd for a while, when I first got hocd I was on holiday, some gay bloke came on to me when I was drunk, telling me I was gay etc. The next morning I woke up in a panic, the next few weeks/months I was scared, couldn't think straight at all, I learned about hocd and this continued! I seeked help and a few months on my anxiety dropped, and I felt a lot more normal, but my attraction to women has never fully come back, like hocd is still here a bit! Has your symptoms changed as times gone on?

I believe it's working tremendously on me. Some days I don't even think about it anymore... I would cry before wishing for days like that too. I'm really thankful and happy. I still get the thoughts, but im able to brush them aside easier. I know it's reassurance, but I've finally reached a place where I believe I have ocd, so the doubt is so much less. I finally feel like I might get my life back. I'm very excited