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I'm so glad to hear these improvements stories :) wishing you a full recovery
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Yes I'd like to hear them too. I'm not really getting good days but I hope that in the upcoming weeks things will get better. I love when people post their recovering stories cause it gives you hope
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You too. Please let me know when you have good days. I know a lot of people post fears here, but I'd love to hear more about people getting better as well
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Hey icandothis, I'd love to know which exposure therapy you've been doing? Have you done all of it on your own, or have you seen a therapist? Love having hope, and reading others success certainly helps!
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@rile20 I'm doing it on my own. Im going to hire an online therapist next month. I've been so afraid to do that because I didn't know if I actually have OCD. I was afraid they were just going to tell me I need to deal with this. I got a massage from a man. I started listening to podcasts with homosexual hosts talking about gay lifestyle. I've been watching documentaries about gay people, and I started grappling again. I know it's not recommend to to erp on your own, but I had no choice. I'm gonna pay for a consult from Chrissie Hodges to find me an online therapist
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Do you believe it's working for you? I've had hocd for almost a year, and the last few months have got better, although lately I don't feel as good as I have been! Obviously you've had hocd for a while, when I first got hocd I was on holiday, some gay bloke came on to me when I was drunk, telling me I was gay etc. The next morning I woke up in a panic, the next few weeks/months I was scared, couldn't think straight at all, I learned about hocd and this continued! I seeked help and a few months on my anxiety dropped, and I felt a lot more normal, but my attraction to women has never fully come back, like hocd is still here a bit! Has your symptoms changed as times gone on?
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I believe it's working tremendously on me. Some days I don't even think about it anymore... I would cry before wishing for days like that too. I'm really thankful and happy. I still get the thoughts, but im able to brush them aside easier. I know it's reassurance, but I've finally reached a place where I believe I have ocd, so the doubt is so much less. I finally feel like I might get my life back. I'm very excited
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Struggling with TOCD has probably been the hardest theme I’ve had to deal with so far For reference. I’m a gay male 20yr old Before this theme I was so open with my gender expression, love drag and used to do it for a time. A lot of my friends are trans women and my whole life is queer When this theme hit. It’s like I completely lost who I was. Questioning everything I enjoyed, not participating in anything because it triggered me so heavily. I went through a whole gender journey awhile back and the trans path never spoke to me when I looked into it. I love my physique and my face but now when I look into the mirror i feel like a shell of who I was. I can’t find any sort of pure enjoyment without the accompanying “what if” or “you’re this” intrusive thought I still enjoy how I look. I’ve not looked in the mirror and felt like anything is missing from me or needs to be taken away I just feel like a spectator in my life while this disease tells me I’m not who I know myself to be I affirm myself every day I know who I am and it may change in the future but that’s not important. It’s highly unlikely it will but it may! Giving into the uncertainty has been so hard but it’s worth it! My ocd has really picked up since getting into my first serious relationship I care about my boyfriend with my whole heart but over the course of our relationship my themes have included Health Relationship Irreality Harm I just want to be who I was again before this current theme it feels unbearable to live like this BUT! I’m seeking appropriate treatment and not giving into a majority of compulsions I just wanted to write this to see if anyone can relate and if they do. Know that you will overcome this! I know I will and you will too
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Hi all, I deal with HOCD and been seeing a therapist for about 3.5 months. It has definitely got better but still affects me very much. Was wondering there is anyone out there who has dealt with HOCD as well and has recovered. I would love to message or even chat just see how your experience was and hear what was beneficial to you.
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Hey everyone, just wanted to post an honest update on where I’m at in my HOCD recovery. Right now, I'm stuck in what feels like a 24/7 spike — nonstop thoughts, intrusive sensations, identity doubts, and hyperfocus. The worst part? It feels real. Like I’ve “lost,” like I’ve accepted it, like I am gay. The thoughts don't feel like anxiety anymore — they feel like truth. I’ve been trying to do ERP, but the spike has been so constant I don’t even have to “do exposures” — the thoughts, feelings, and sensations are just there all day long. It’s like living inside an exposure. And it’s exhausting. BUT — here’s what I’ve been doing (and what I’m sticking to now): I say once: “These thoughts and feelings are welcome to stay for as long as they want.” I let the doubt, the feelings, the hyperfocus exist. I don’t check, test, or analyze — even when it screams at me. I live my life anyway — folding clothes, watching TV, eating, walking — with the storm in my head. Even when it feels 100% real. Even when I’m fully focused on it. I’ve stopped trying to feel better. I’m letting it all burn — and just not fixing it. It doesn’t feel good. It doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel like progress.
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