Scared

Please anyone, I’m scared.

What if you are? Maybe you arren't, maybe you are. It's okay to be scared and vulnerable. OCD will attack you during this time. Sit with it. Much like driving down the road you see all these billboards but you rarely stop or pull off the look at one. Sure you see them and some they pass by, while others inspire thoughts. Your mind is a highway and you have all these billboards to look at but keep driving.

Same man I’m not gonna give up hope you shouldn’t either we got this there

I hated the part of therapy where I have to look at myself in the mirror and tell myself affirmations, because I thought I am lying to myself. But really the bad things I say in my head are the lies. We have to counter the bad statements with good statements. When you hear the statement, counter it by saying "I am" and say something you want to be or feel. It has helped me even though I feel strange doing it.

I messed up by not looking for help sooner but the damage is done it basically kept testing my self and getting the same results but it kept saying and I have a girlfriend so now I’m in a spiral but I gotta keep fight because I love my girlfriend and they are just thought but I need help to train my mind to keep them from making my life a hell