After a heavy compulsion, my anxiety creeped up slowly and now I’m back to how I was before therapy(high anxiety). Have to force myself to eat in the am and when I do I feel like I want to vomit. Why does anxiety come back up?? Also, I don’t think I’m in fear of my thoughts. Why am I not fearing like they say that happens when you compulse? Any helpful advice would be greatly appreciated.
It’s the same for me, I don’t feel scared of the thoughts. I don’t even get anxiety. It’s really confusing… Like I don’t desire them, but sometimes it feels like I do. Like I said, it’s just confusing.
@Anonymous…8 Yea I have something similar but except after the compulsion my feelings of my intrusive thoughts are making me think I do want to act on my thoughts which is the total opposite of my values. I came to NOCD cause of my intrusive thoughts, it disgusted me and now it feels real. OCD is one crazy monster
These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
I’ve started ERP therapy with a really great therapist, and I haven’t gave into my compulsions but I still have anxiety and yesterday my brain was telling me that people were zombies😭 is this normal?
So I had a panic attack a while ago to “kill mom” and I forgot about the thought until a few days later. When it came back I was mentally drained and it lasted for 2 months or more. It eventually went away but it is back. I get other intrusive thoughts but they go away after a hour or so. Why am I stressing over “kill mom” so much. I just get irritated that it won’t go away. I’m beginning to think it’s a different mental illness maybe just anxiety? I’m not sure to be honest. It just appears and sits there and I feel like I’m doomed and a pyscho and worry that I’ll never forget the thought.
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