Therapist made me anxious

@blazed This is basically what she told me. What if she’s right ? I’m scared now

@Myheadhurts35 Hey I’m scared too internet friend. It’s okay to be scared about it! Just try not to spend too much time thinking about it or trying to solve it. That internalized homophobia line is crazy to hear from your therapist especially when it’s not what you want to hear

@Myheadhurts35 How would she know who you are , at the end of the day no one really knows . And again I know it’s hard but getting the answer you want to hear won’t make it better . Tell yourself “shit I might be gay who knows I might or might not find out one day “ the fact you think about it so much it’s OCD , people in denial don’t think about it all day you get me they are able to carry on with there day to day activities

@Myheadhurts35 The “what if” in your question is your anxiety talking. It sounds like OCD to me, so sit with the uncertainty and you’ll get better with time. I wish I could give you an answer too but this is the only way ☹️

@jzepedaa7 Right. I know how distressing this whole thing is but you gotta trust yourself. Only you know who you are and only you can determine your identity. Are you going to believe someone you just met, or believe yourself who you’ve known all your life? I’ve been in the same boat as you and would cry for hours on end, but trust me, it does get better ❤️ @Myheadhurts35

@blazed It’s so hard. Thank you though

@Myheadhurts35 I know :( but remember thoughts and feelings don’t mean anything. If it’s causing you distress then it’s OCD

@blazed Yes it causes me so much distress. My body literally tenses up

@Myheadhurts35 Same thing happens to me too. Was the therapist you saw an OCD specialist?

@blazed She claims she is but she didn’t seem to understand I don’t think. How can I tell ?

@Myheadhurts35 Does she offer ERP, ACT, or I-CBT? If she doesn’t then she won’t be able to help with this. After what she said too, I think you’re better off finding a new therapist.

@blazed CBT she said.

@Myheadhurts35 Hmm idk. Have you tried seeing an NOCD therapist?

@blazed I haven’t. I guess I’m scared of them saying no you don’t have it

@Myheadhurts35 I totally understand. I think you should still go for it. It sounds like your OCD is stopping you, so do the opposite of what it tells you. You’ll be happy you did!

@Myheadhurts35 If she was she would recognize SOOCD , every ocd specialist does

@jzepedaa7 She’s made me feel like I have internalised homophobia. I’m so scared.

@Myheadhurts35 It’s okay I’ve gone through the same experience, as I said I was told my a therapist to go to church to get the demons out of my head like that would help , you don’t have internalized homophones just try finding a NOCD specialist they are good

@jzepedaa7 I don’t understand why she said what she did. She’s supposed to be an ocd specialist. She can’t diagnose me tho. She did say I’m having repetitive intrusive thoughts

@Myheadhurts35 Either she doesn’t specialize in OCD or she doesn’t understand what you meant- which is odd because she should know.

@blazed How do I know if she’s an ocd specialist?

@Myheadhurts35 I just told you why some therapist have no idea or don’t study the subtype , again you have to find a specialist who knows about SOOCD , there’s a good chance you are straight if it bothers you so much and you get intrusive thoughts just relax don’t stress and let the thoughts sit there

@jzepedaa7 I’m still so stressed, sorry. I just don’t know what to do

@Myheadhurts35 You sit with the thoughts and tell yourself you are gay , doesn’t mean you are it’s just the way to reverse the malfunction in the brain