I feel like I want to crawl out of my skin in the morning. ROCD is insistent that I break up with my boyfriend, that I am in denial and it’s too hard, that I’m just lying to myself. And I’m terrified that deep down that’s what I want! I’m obsessed with not being a bad person or hurting him.
I woke up this morning feeling the exact same way about my boyfriend. I immediately got up and took my dog for a walk, drank some water, and got on with my day. It was really helpful actually. I hope you can find something similar that works for you :)
Hey! I have a personal experience that may help: 2 years ago i broke up with someone because i had ocd (and didn’t know it at the time). The first days after the break up felt relieving, no more anxiety, i’ve done my compulsion, i though i was done and that relationship was just bad!! But weeks later, i started to feel like shit. I was missing him. I cried for months, I even tried to reach out to him, but he pushed me away (understable, living with someone with ROCD is draining). Today I’m healed from this relationship and i’m currently in a new relationship with someone that i love (i also experience ROCD in this relationship). Breaking up is a compulsion, a temporary solution to a bigger problem that is within yourself!! Not your relationship. But yep i agree on one point : morning are the worst.
I relate to this 100%. It’s like I don’t have motivation for anything anymore. Always getting intrusive thoughts about everything in my relationship. There’s always something new coming up in my head and it’s so draining. Do you even feel like life is meaningless? I’ve been getting that a lot lately
I feel this way! Mornings are awful!! I wake up so anxious I don’t want to open my eyes and be in the real world again! I’m so worried I’m not attracted to my fiancé anymore and the thought of getting the baby up scares me too! I don’t want my partner to touch me! I love hugs but something just feels wrong about lying next to him on a morning and I don’t know where it’s come from! I used to hate it when he got up! I’m so so scared I’m only with him for children when deep down I’m gay! It’s the worst feeling ever! I don’t find joy in anything anymore!
Hi all, I just joined this app today after finding its recommendation on reddit so bear with me. The past three weeks of my life has been a living hell. Out of nowhere, I started obsessing about if I need to leave my partner. So let me just say, I love my partner so much, we’ve been together for 1.5 years. The thoughts about leaving him are eating me up and pulling me apart. For three weeks straight now from the second I wake up to the second I fall asleep, all I can think about is how I feel like I have to break up with my boyfriend even though I don’t want to. Nothings changed in our relationship but these thoughts have sent me into a spiral. I’ll spend hours reading articles about staying together and breaking up, having multiple crying meltdowns a day about the thought of losing him and that I don’t love him anymore, and feel like I can’t make this anxiety go away unless we break up (AND I DONT WANT TO AT ALL.) This has given my physical symptoms of nausea, chest ache, stomach issues, and mental symptoms of a pit in my stomach, constant feeling of dread, obsessive thoughts that I can’t stop thinking, and the guilt is unimaginable. I love him and I can’t imagine being with someone else. I don’t know what to do anymore. Is this ROCD or am I a bad partner?
Please does anyone else have the same thoughts and feelings as I do who suffer with ROCD (bearing in mind I love my boyfriend, he’s the kindest most loving boy and I love him with all my heart) we spend all day laughing with eachother! I’m constantly like: You don’t love him, this isn’t right with him, you’re horrible for stringing him along, break up with him, break up with him, did you ever actually love him, you’re probably a lesbian, you don’t find him attractive, there’s nothing between you two Then in other moments when I’m not feeling this I literally could cry with how amazing he is! 😢🙈
I’ve been with my bf for 8 months and really love him. Recently though my ROCD has been insane. I can’t stop thinking about breaking up with him and have this feeling that he isn’t the one for me. But when I’m with him the feeling subsides and I feel happy most of the time (no relationship is perfect). I’ve had moments of such intense dread and anxiety from this I just want to blurt out and say I want to break up when I don’t even. It’s almost like I feel there will be huge sense of relief once I do..it’s the worst at night. But then I think about not having him in my life and it feels even more dreadful . And even if I am having some real doubts that aren’t anxiety it is not at all close to the point of a break up convo. Does anyone have any good exercises or suggestions to make this stop?
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