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Can hocd can change your sexuality??
Like i think that we can't fully change but a slight shift can happen with hocd...guys this the worst theme ever...i want to be 100% straight.
Like i think that we can't fully change but a slight shift can happen with hocd...guys this the worst theme ever...i want to be 100% straight.
one time i spent a day crying because i genuinely thought i didn't like my bf enough and thought we should break up because he tried a parfume and i didn't felt anything (no sparkle) smelling it on him😭😂 Another one i felt the worst person ever because my cat mieowed me in a strange way.. i spent hours triggered at the possibility that "what if my cat will hate me growing up" and checking every possible scenarios 😂
OCD can really trick you, but no, sexuality can positively absolutely not change. I used to have HOCD real bad. I would notice attractive things on guys, but those would be the same qualities I could appreciate on a girl. For instance, I would notice a guy would have pretty eyes, but a girl with the same pretty eyes would also be attractive. OCD can distort reality and make you think you're gay. Meds help a bunch. Get on an SSRI, it will give you your life back.
Ocd can make us think everything 😂😅😭
Nobody will ever 100% straight
There are people out there 100% straight tho... Unfortunately for them haha
It feels like I’m lying to myself constantly and everyone. There feels like there is a weight on my heart from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep. I don’t want to be gay. Idk why it doesn’t register. Now everyone I see I have to see if I’m attracted to them. I see good looking men and I feel like I’m lying to myself that they are good looking, I see women and I see if im attracted to them. I look at everyone and I feel jealous. I want my fucking life back. But now my OCD (if this is even OCD) is telling me I was never happy and I was always suppressing my feelings of being gay. Why is this happening? Can OCD do this? I can’t enjoy anything ever.
I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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