Oh god someone please help me!! š I need help!! I donāt wanna break up! But itās like I really want to and due to me believing I donāt love him!!! š¢š¢š¢ššš please!! Did anyone recover from thinking they didnāt love their partner of ROCD anxiety and depression!?!? Am I just too afraid too break up is that it!!!!!!!!! My 12 year relationship is gonna die!!! Please!! I donāt wanna break up!!!!
Sit with that anxiety. Sit with it. Run towards it. Itās the ONLY way out. You running away from it intensifies it. Stop trying to force your intrusive thoughts and feelings out. Just because you thought it, or felt it, doesnāt it make it reality.
It's OKAY I've been there and still struggle with it... but I've realized it's a fact we have feelings but feelings aren't fact. Whenever I'm uncomfortable for WHATEVER reason, my mind attaches onto things I love and tries to blame it. For me my mind decided that I'm not happy in life so it must be my boyfriend (who is super supportive and would never hurt a fly). It got to the point I'd get sick around him, so nervous, guessing and checking my feelings. Blah blah blah it's a never ending loop until you stop letting the thoughts have such a hard hold of you... also one thing to consider that helps me. People fall out of love, people feel indifferent about their partners sometimes. Those butterfly feelings or even warm feelings sometimes isn't even there and that's OK. The good news is, if it's a relationship worth fighting for (which showing your concern means it IS) then you can work on falling back in love. The brain gets bored, that's normal. After 12 years I'm sure things have settled and maybe gotten pretty predictable. There's a comfort to that, but sometimes your brain doesn't crave comfort, it wants NEW, FUN, EXCITING. Basically our brains are looking for that happy chemical release. Once you realize that, and realize love isn't like the Hollywood movies, it gets alot easier. You fell out of love.. congrats, it's normal. Now work on trying new things, experimenting, eye contact, active listening and building up a new kind of love that will last years to come. It's okay. Also keep in mind, what I said above I'd of course if it's not just ocd attacking your mind. If it is, then at least you know and start working on that. Hope this helps š
Yes! I have got through this. You WILL be ok. Hang in there. Remember that OCD laches onto the things you care about most, your relationship. Stay strong and let the thoughts be there without trying to make them go away. YOU GOT THISā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
Make a loop tape of a break up letter. Sounds crazy but write it, listen to it, and repeat. You may have to start smaller if you canāt do that right now. Sit with the uncomfortable feelings. Feelings are temporary and they will pass. Even if it doesnāt feel like it. Some days Iāll have a flare up but other days I donāt have a thought. Complete 180 from a year ago. You can do this. You can do hard things.
@Anonymous Such a great idea.
I obsessed and obsessed to this point!!! š°š¢šššš
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i get you. iām 12 and iām in a relationship. itās hard because i try to break us up all the time because i self sabotage sometimes. i like to think that if I push people away and it ends up not working out then since i pushed them away it will hurt less. but it never does. do whatever you feel is necessary. If you really want to break up with them to do it. Iām sorry Iām not really good at giving advice :(
I donāt wanna break up! I am up crying all morning. I ruined my own birthday yesterday! I want to love him! I have my period but even before it was sorta like like! I held his hand one day and cried!!! Why would I cry for a man if I didnāt love him!! Why!? I know I wouldāve walked away! Can ROCD truly make you believe you found truth and make you not love your partner!!!?? Can it honestly get this bad!!!!
I really need someone to talk toā¦ just to ventā¦ if not.. i just need get this out and everything can ignore if they want.ā¦ I donāt know what to doā¦ I know Iāve been severely obsessing for 2 year about if I truly love my partner or not for 2 yearsā¦ I am severely saddened about how I feel right nowā¦. Before I knew I wanted to love him and stay.. it felt genuine like I was really mentally sickā¦ but nowā¦ my partner looks like a stranger to me, I get annoyed at him easily even if heās just sitting stillā¦ itās like heās a different person to me and I hate itā¦ I wanted so badly for me to know if I love him or notā¦ and itās like our time together never happenedā¦ I donāt cuddle talk or do much of anything anymore with him and it bothers meā¦ I feel no emotional connection with himā¦ maybe his flaws are too much for meā¦ š¢š¢ I donāt knowā¦. I want to love him again like before but I completely feel like Iām lying to him and myselfā¦ I donāt wanna end my relationship I really donāt want toā¦ I do t know how badly ROCD can get butā¦ this is the worst Iāve ever hadā¦ my relationship is gonna dieā¦ š¢ Iām sitting here quietly crying while he is asleepā¦.
I no longer get reactions to testing my feelingsā¦ Right now I am just sitting here thinking have I ever been truly happy with him? Do I actually just wanna break up?ā¦ I am sitting here believing I donāt love him romantically anymore thinking I am only with him to avoid hurting himā¦ that deep down I know I donāt love him anymoreā¦ that I donāt wanna admit it.. thatās all I am thinking aboutā¦ I am worried I donāt love him enough to move forward with himā¦ šš¢ I love him a lot I really do and just sitting with theses feelings are difficult enough. Itās affecting my work performance since I always walk off and hide. To read about ROCD. I even had my hours cut short so I donāt have to be there long like this. But I think I just hate my job to be honestā¦ itās burning me outā¦ so I think I need a new oneā¦ I just donāt know what to doā¦ I donāt wanna break up with him but then this thought comes in and makes me think I am with him for the wrong reasons. Canāt have sex as much as I would want to bc then I think I am not attracted to him enoughā¦ I still touch him but then I stopā¦ My 12 year relationship is gonna dieā¦ how can I sit here and let this feeling passā¦
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