JBird88
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- 6y
garden garden
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- 6y
I’m so scared of death!
eybaddicteybaddict
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- 6y
? I feel like it’s not that easy to just live.... I literally feel myself in the dying panic mode of what it will feel like to die and I’m in a panic
garden garden
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- 6y
If it helps, I’m not feeling great today either due to this existential crap. I had a weird dream in which I had a month to live, and at the end it all just went black. Then I woke up. I fear I have been reborn or something! But I’m trying my hardest to not figure it out and just let it be. We can imagine how it’d feel to die OR we can simply wait until our time is here and then experience it. In the meantime, we can try our best to live life according to our values and do the things we live and enjoy!
JBird88JBird88
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- 6y
Yes!!! Last night I just had the worst panic attack because I just felt like “what if I don’t want to live anymore” and like “what if death is better than being alive” and I just felt horrible and like I was actually thinking ... “Is this what I want” ??
garden garden
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- 6y
But I try to make peace with it :)
garden garden
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- 6y
It’s okay! Just remember, some things don’t NEED to be known. I suffered for a while with existential related thoughts but at the end of it, I reached the conclusion that it doesn’t really matter. Whether my existence is real or not, it doesn’t have to stop me from doing the things I love. Why should I waste my entire life asking unanswerable questions when I could just simply live? Just accept the uncertainty
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