My work changed my schedule a few weeks ago so I have Sundays off now and every Sunday I feel like I can't do anything like if I want to buy something or go enjoy the day I feel I can't because Sunday is a day people go to church and it was the day of rest so my anxiety makes me feel bad and I ruminate over everything I'll do and remember oh I bought this on Sunday
Seems like you are avoiding religious stuffs for ocd....... I also used to avoid religious stuffs and had to leave prayers for my ocd..... But now religious ocd doesn't bother me much as it became an old ocd theme of mine and i got used to it.....
How did you get used to it I believe God loves me and wants me to live a happy life. God made me the way I am for a reason. Everything I like and love makes me happy and I'm tired of letting this OCD get to me
@Tech At first when i started to experience religious ocd it was terrible and very scary as i didn't know back then that i had ocd....... So i was afraid of that i would go to hell and God will punish me heavily..... Now this fear increased my anxiety more...... And i was unknowingly ruminating my intrusive thoughts about God and my religion And thought i was thinking those thoughts voluntary..... So due to it all it made me feel like hell.... I was frightened and anxious all the time....... Then there came a time when i completely detached myself from any kind of religious acts or thoughts.... And even A Bit from God in order to not think of those intrusive thoughts...... And i was thinking that i would end up in hell if i think those.... So i just detached myself to anything religious..... And started to continue my life without fear as for quite a time i was frightened about God Punishing me...... But He didn't do anything.... So i just rest assured that maybe he won't do anything..... I should stop being anxious or Scared as these feelings are making my life a hell...... So i just continued living without the fear thinking that God won't do anything to me.... As He didn't do till now..... And in order to not think those thoughts i just detached myself to religion completely...... And even if i had those thoughts i would just ignore cause i was having those for quite a long time then so i thought these would keep coming but if i give any attention to them my life would become hell.... As for About God i just assumed He Won't do anything for Now at least and i don't know about the Afterlife..... What punishment He Will Give To me..... Now this is how i was dealing with religious ocd back then when i didn't know that i had ocd.....
@Tech Then after almost a year i got to know that i had ocd.... And that was such a huge relief as i understood that i wasn't thinking those voluntary or neither wanted to think those..... And it all was for my illness..... So that was a huge relief.... Now from that time.... My anxious and scared feelings just went away.... As i Realised that God didn't even do anything when i was assuring that I'm thinking these disgusting thoughts about Him..... And He Will punish me..... He didn't do anything back then...... So now when i know that It's all for my illness and I'm not at fault why Would He Punish me??? So from then i just stopped fearing and being anxious about the intrusive thoughts which helped a lot....... And Then This thing i also realized that Might help you is that..... God is All knowing , He knows everything then He definitely knew Even before me That i had ocd..... He knew even before me.... That i have an illness and it's all for that...... Not cause i was thinking of those disgusting thoughts........ So know that God Knew Everything even before you..... And He understands you more than you........ So why the hell even He Would get the idea to Punish you?? Instead of that.... He Would love and support you more as He knows that you are going through such hardship...... And you love Him that's why you're being so anxious and terrified of the thoughts.... Which are not even thought by you....... So God has His Blessings For you Always..... Forget about punishment..... So this thing helped me a lot as i stopped panicking and being anxious or terrified Of God....
@Tech And As For Dealing With The intrusive Thoughts...... What helped me is just simply watching them Pass....... And not giving them any kind of attention....... Now not giving attention here doesn't mean to ignore the thoughts or trying to not to think about those thoughts...... Those things just Doesn't work...... What works is Just Simply Letting The Thoughts Pass without any slightest of Attention........ And after a while you will notice that.... Those thoughts will less disturb you.... If you just let them pass....... You just gotta believe that those intrusive thoughts about God or religion Doesn't say anything About you..... So Don't Fear the Thoughts or even be Anxious about it And God Just Knows And Understand Everything About You More than You know and Understand..... So there's nothing to fear God because of Those Thoughts....... And The last thing is just letting the thoughts pass..... No ignoring, no avoiding, no questioning, no explaining, no trying to not even think those thoughts...... Just simply letting them pass These 3 things helped me to get used to the Religious ocd theme...... And i still have intrusive thoughts about God and Religious stuff but now those thoughts doesn't have much affect or even no affect on me....... Cause i think maybe i just got used to it as i think that these thoughts are coming and going for quite a long time now and they will just keep coming and going........ So i can't keep giving them attention..... So now i don't give them any kind of attention and thus Got Used to it...........
And there's another thing i think... I got used to it for... That is ocd themes just keep changing and getting old..... Back in time religious ocd gave me a hell of a time...... Now religious ocd to me doesn't even matter much... Tho i still have those disgusting thoughts about God And Religion...... Currently what matters to me much is that Pure Ocd Theme and Pure Ocd is making my life a Hell now........ So ocd theme just keep changing and keep coming and going maybe because of that I got used to Religious Ocd Theme....... And instead of that got a New theme as Main Theme 🤦♀️ Now who knows you might also get used to it like Me someday and get another new main theme....... This theme changing thing just Happens to everyone dealing with ocd.... As i have seen so far....... OCD just SUCKS..... Disgusting Disease
I had a few gift cards for Joann fabrics saved up from when I was in highschool, it was at least 150$ worth of Joanns gift cards. But I always feel a lot of guilt and anxiety surrounding spending money and I never used them, I always felt like I hadn’t earned it. About a month ago or so, I talked with my therapist about spending them online as an exposure. I added a bunch of things to my cart and then at the last minute, I closed out of the page and didn’t go through with it. I felt so anxious about choosing the wrong things, and so guilty about how wasteful and frivolous it is to buy new things for fun. I always feel guilty buying new things because the system is so unethical, and also because I feel like I haven’t earned them. I think about all the things I still need to do and how irresponsible I have been, and how spoiled I must be that I think I deserve all these shiny new things because I want them while other people are homeless or struggling just to eat. I always think about how I should spend my money donating to better causes because there are people who need it more than me, but I also never feel like I can donate anywhere because I get worried about how much to donate and wether I’m a bad person for not giving enough. Well anyway, Joann fabrics is going out of business now. So I finally went in person to spend them, but it turns out they no longer accept gift cards due to the store going bankrupt. I know it sounds silly, and it’s just a silly craft store and ultimately in the grand scheme of life it is not a big deal, but I feel so disappointed that I wasn’t able to follow through with the goal I had set before. I always thought I would save them for a special time when I had earned them, but that time never came, there is not some magical occasion where I feel like I have finally earned my own permission. It’s just a cycle of refusing to reward myself because I always feel like I haven’t earned it. I’m not sure exactly where I’m going with this, I haven’t posted on here before because I always talk myself out of it but the whole thing just got me thinking. I don’t wanna spend my life waiting until I have done enough good deeds and cleared my moral slate enough that I have earned the right to live my life, that time never comes. It just really hit me today
I'm wondering if this is a common OCD experience: does anyone else find that when you have idle time, your mind just spirals into endless rumination on negative "what ifs" & intrusive thoughts? It's been happening to me for the past three years, which coincides with starting a really high-stress job. Weekends used to be my time to relax, but now I dread weekends...I only feel relief when I'm sleeping because it's the only time my mind seems to quiet down. It's honestly so depressing to lose that enjoyment. Does anyone else relate to this, and if so, what helps you cope?
Nearly a week since I stopped in the middle of a compulsion and I still feel stressed and tempted to finish it. My throat, ears, head, chest, legs,arms, my body has been hurting since then. And if I finish it will it stop? But what's stopping me is.. I've been trying to trust God to handle it. Idk what to do rn, Ive been trying to set up a schedule for this week but it ended up not working out so I will try again next week, and School work I'm years behind (I'm in yr 10), I don't rlly have any friends either to help me. But anyways I try not to think about school that much since I have alot more to think about. And I don't even have any talent or anything I want to be I just want to be a good person but I'm horrible I just need to do focus on stuff Like getting closer to God. looking after myself. The OCD thoughts which. I can't do any of these tho because the OCD makes me so stressed I just want to hit the OCD in the face but I can't obviously so I do it to myself, And they make me want to do more to myself but I don't because ✝️ And I don't want to. Anyways I can't even do the basic things to look after yourself, and The OCD thoughts keep saying about death all the time, and illness. I don't like hearing it in my head all the time I can't do anything properly. And Those thoughts are active when I try read the Bible. Even when I used an audio bible. And a app where u read 1 verse at a time it's still hard. But basically what do I do My throat keeps feeling weird like burning without the feeling hot ughhshsheh I don't want to go back into that life when I was 12-13 where I was worrying about my health and checking with doctor all the time
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