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- js94
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- 5y ago
Great advice! This is a very difficult disorder. It’s like our brains are just out of control. Just try your best and limit your drinking. If you drink with the goal of trying to stop the thoughts then you will continually drink too much. Remind yourself you can’t stop them and just try and be with the fact they are there. Maybe a few drinks will help a bit, but more than that and you could just be setting yourself up for more when the alcohol wears off. I have been exactly where you are and it is heart breaking. Hang in there! The NOCD community is with you. You will get better.
Oh, and the feelings of anxiety are horrible, but try to remember that nothing bad will happen. It’s just false alarms. This takes practice on a daily basis for me.
Hang in there! Just give it another 24 hours until you start to feel better. I can relate to the pain you feel and it is awful. Can you back off your drinking so that you are able to start feeling a little better? Not saying you have to quit, but perhaps just moderate. This technique is called harm reduction, and it may be worth a shot for you. Intrusive thoughts and OCD is very difficult to talk about and you are correct that most likely an addiction center will not know how to treat properly.
Ask some good questions if you decide to try inpatient.
Every time I try to quit or not drink as much I just get extreme anxiety and intrusive thoughts
I am sorry that is happening. If you are drinking a lot then the alcohol is definitely making this worse. You may have to get through some intense anxiety before it starts to dissipate. Do you think that is possible for you? Do you go to AA?
I've been to a few AA meetings but then I get intrusive thoughts and start to drink again. I only feel normal when I drink beer i know it's not good but I'm miserable without it.
How old r u teddy? Do u drink alcohol too because of your ocd ?
I am 41. I went through a time where I was definitely drinking too much due to OCD and anxiety. I ended up getting sober for 2 years. I do drink again, but I have to be very careful. Yes, the drinking does take away the thoughts at times, but I know it’s just a break and that I have to stop drinking and back to feeling the anxiety. There just isn’t any other option. I really can relate with where you are and my heart goes out to you. Try and focus on getting through this day without drinking too much. Think that is possible?
Have you thought about Antabuse? If you take it you cannot drink for at least a week. If you do you will get extremely ill. It may be an option to get the alcohol out of your system.
I'm 24 and I've self medicated with it since it started when I was 19. Are you are any medication? I'll try to limit it today . I've thought about taking a shot or something to stop drinking so that could be an option. But I just can't stand sitting with the anxiety.
Also, you don’t have to tell your therapist the details of the sexual thoughts if that’s too uncomfortable. You can just say “I’m having intrusive sexual thoughts that upset me” and leave it at that. Your treatment will probably be the same whether you paint the full picture or not. There are people out there who know exactly what you’re talking about, HOCD and everything else.
Sooooooo omg my mom mentioned that she saw a show on televisopn where people with weird mental ilnesses spoke and she mentioned that there was someone with hocd and how she thought it was weird but she thought in this generation she doesnt blame people for having it because it isnt their own fault and there is alot of pressure on your sexuality and omg i got sooo red and i felt like i was gonna burst out in tears and tell them everyything i was sooo close to just break and tell them what ive been going trough for the past year. Im so freaked out and like... i jusr wanna tell them but im ashamed and i know i will n e v e r tell them but i cant believe i got this close. And i just dont know what to do bevause on the show the doctor said a looot of people approached him with having hocd and that its really a new big mental ilness thing. You know what it is, my mom said that the man on the show who had hocd said he wasnt in to guys at all but his brain told him he liked it and that was me in the ebginning of hocd but now i have a feeling i cant relate anymore and that hurts so much because its like hocd has gotten so deep into me that i honestly believe it and like i created genuine feelings towards woman. I dont know what to think anymroe. I pray everynight god will Release me and somehow i feel like this is my punishment for not listenig to Him and i also todsy read in the bible That people who ignore god do things wrong when it comes to sexual stuff and that people wont be able to think clear anymore and that they will be lost and thats just me and im So afraid because the bible says people will be punished for it idk im so freaked out!!!! I wanna be a better person so bad but i cant when my brain is like this i need help from god but im scared he just rejects me vecause ive been a horrrible person. So selfish and i know my heart is ebtter than that but i cant set good apart from bad bevause my brain wont let me. Its like i dont give a shit about anyhting anymore and i miss me who could think clear and who was genuine and honored god. Its like ny current brain cant do that snymore it doesnt have the right functions for it anymorw. Like the good part in me had been cut out and im tryna find it but its destroyed and theres no way it will come back.
i'm sorry in advance for how long this post is and if it's to much information. i'm undiagnosed but have been struggling with compulsions and intrusive thoughts since i was 7 or 8. My worst intrusive thoughts theme has been about p*d*phil*s. I've been dealing with it since my freshman and sophomore year but these thoughts didn't become debilitating until June of last year. I had a panic attack and confessed to my parents about these intrusive thoughts. They were obviously shocked and share. I felt so ashamed and like a monster. After talking with my dad he said we would see a therapist about it. Sadly we never did the first appointment we were late and missed are spot and the second appointment i sprained my ankle the night before so instead i was in the hospital. After that i closed myself off i tried dealing with them on my own using sources like NOCD and stuff. I did try to bring up going to therapy to my parents. Every time they would ask me if the intrusive thoughts were back and I would lie saying "no i just would like to go to therapy" I was so scared they'd be afraid of me and stop loving me, especially my mom. Eventually after awhile my parents forgot about it and I tried ignoring these intrusive thoughts because I was so focused and stressed from school. I decided I could just wait till I turn 18 and schedule myself into therapy. recently though my intrusive thoughts have gotten worse. I recently had a convo with one of my friends who has intrusive thoughts as well and she's encouraging me to talk to my parents. I'm asking y'all what should I do. As much as I'm scared I want to get help because I'm sick of living and feeling like i'm day away from acting on my intrusive thoughts.
I do not know what to do anymore. I spiralled again down with my OCD theme and I cannot get out. It is the fear of being bisexual. I am so low at the moment that I have become so hopeless and weary that I cannot discern reality from my thoughts. When I get intrusive thoughts it feels real and the worst part is that I am not even confident anymore that this are intrusive thoughts. I am constantly repeating “I am straight/heterosexual.“ but I always get a certain feeling of tightness inside my chest that I cannot explain. I got with the past theme of HOCD but I did not pay any attention to it. But now it feels too real and my fear that I might be in denial is huge. OCD has put so much pressure on me that I now truly believe that I know something about my sexuality and I do not want to acknowledge it. My thoughts scream at me ”Lies, liar, you know!, I know I am in denial“ and then there is this feeling that makes me feel bisexual. The worst part is that my depression increases my anguish. I also get a lot of false attraction. I always knew I liked the opposite gender and I always had crushes on them. I had even crushes on fictional characters. But my thoughts invalidate this fact. They make me anxiously thinking if I had also crushes or feelings for the same sex and it distorts my past. I almost forgot who I am and for what I fought for. I fought for being heterosexual, for gaining it back and then defending it. Now it feels like fighting for a cause that I do not want to fight for. It feels like something is forcing me to think these things, to view everything in this light and to doubt everything. I am thinking about this theme every minute of my life. I am ruminating a lot and searching all the websites for answers. I am also looking for the difference between denial and HOCD. I used to have a lot of insight into my condition. Now I have nothing. I feel numb. The thought of being with the same sex repulses me and it always did since I have suffered from HOCD. I never had any desires to be with them. I developed even some tics like showing fear, disgust or anger towards my thoughts or clenching my fists. This theme makes me feel that I have discovered something and HOCD was something that has not existed.
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