My parents want me to go inpatient again for my ocd binge drinking and depression but I know they won't understand ocd especially not HOCD. And its so hard to talk about sexual intrusive thoughts. I feel like I'm at the end of the road here with no where to turn. I feel hopeless.

Great advice! This is a very difficult disorder. It’s like our brains are just out of control. Just try your best and limit your drinking. If you drink with the goal of trying to stop the thoughts then you will continually drink too much. Remind yourself you can’t stop them and just try and be with the fact they are there. Maybe a few drinks will help a bit, but more than that and you could just be setting yourself up for more when the alcohol wears off. I have been exactly where you are and it is heart breaking. Hang in there! The NOCD community is with you. You will get better.

Oh, and the feelings of anxiety are horrible, but try to remember that nothing bad will happen. It’s just false alarms. This takes practice on a daily basis for me.

Hang in there! Just give it another 24 hours until you start to feel better. I can relate to the pain you feel and it is awful. Can you back off your drinking so that you are able to start feeling a little better? Not saying you have to quit, but perhaps just moderate. This technique is called harm reduction, and it may be worth a shot for you. Intrusive thoughts and OCD is very difficult to talk about and you are correct that most likely an addiction center will not know how to treat properly.

Ask some good questions if you decide to try inpatient.

Every time I try to quit or not drink as much I just get extreme anxiety and intrusive thoughts

I am sorry that is happening. If you are drinking a lot then the alcohol is definitely making this worse. You may have to get through some intense anxiety before it starts to dissipate. Do you think that is possible for you? Do you go to AA?

I've been to a few AA meetings but then I get intrusive thoughts and start to drink again. I only feel normal when I drink beer i know it's not good but I'm miserable without it.

How old r u teddy? Do u drink alcohol too because of your ocd ?

I am 41. I went through a time where I was definitely drinking too much due to OCD and anxiety. I ended up getting sober for 2 years. I do drink again, but I have to be very careful. Yes, the drinking does take away the thoughts at times, but I know it’s just a break and that I have to stop drinking and back to feeling the anxiety. There just isn’t any other option. I really can relate with where you are and my heart goes out to you. Try and focus on getting through this day without drinking too much. Think that is possible?

Have you thought about Antabuse? If you take it you cannot drink for at least a week. If you do you will get extremely ill. It may be an option to get the alcohol out of your system.

I'm 24 and I've self medicated with it since it started when I was 19. Are you are any medication? I'll try to limit it today . I've thought about taking a shot or something to stop drinking so that could be an option. But I just can't stand sitting with the anxiety.

Also, you don’t have to tell your therapist the details of the sexual thoughts if that’s too uncomfortable. You can just say “I’m having intrusive sexual thoughts that upset me” and leave it at that. Your treatment will probably be the same whether you paint the full picture or not. There are people out there who know exactly what you’re talking about, HOCD and everything else.