Extremely triggered….

Okay I’ve been fine all day as far as far as my thoughts go but now I’m extremely triggered. I was saying a sentence that involved the word eat and my mind went way south into finishing the sentence with something gruesome. (I’m sure you can figure it out/ Dahmer type of deal). and now i am sooo scared. Like what was that why would my mind go there? I’ve been fine all day and now I’m freaking out!! It’s like a never ending cycle and now I’m going to be scared all night long. The Dahmer series has triggered me so much that everything is basically a trigger now. 😭 please tell me somebody else is experiencing this?

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timurbsahin

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

The Dahmer series has been extremely triggering for me as well. Have spent hours agonizing over that kind of stuff too and trying to fight myself about how I am not that person. Just recognizing the cycle and how it leads you to nothing but more anxiety is helpful. Also, that’s a totally valid intrusive thought and I wouldn’t say it’s strange at all!

Anon17

Date posted: 2y

@timurbsahin Okay thank you! It’s good to know that it’s a somewhat normal thought. Im just so stuck in the what If i don’t care phase oh my ocd. Like i know people said that he didn’t care what he was doing and all this stuff but now i just can’t stop thinking about what if i don’t care? What if i just go off? What if I am just hiding behind the thought of having ocd because I’ve never been diagnosed? It’s just never ending. What if i just break out into an evil smile and go crazy? It’s so scary

timurbsahin

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Anon17 You literally just wrote about my exact same thoughts! I think a lot people with OCD are watching the series saying OMG? What if I end up like him? What if I’m just repressing similar feelings? Am I gonna go crazy? Will I end up like him? And if you’re like me, you will go as far as to even try justifying to yourself you DO have those gross feelings and how your life is over then and you deserve to be locked up in jail or something 😱 it’s a lot, I know. It’s so so so scary, but I’ve been telling myself that I’ve done this in the past. I know what my OCD is trying to get me to do (research on the web and obsess over the series) and find the “truth.” To make me feel better I tell myself whoa okay let’s stop with this rumination that leads us NOWHERE. And let’s ask myself, do I really want to kill others? It’s so highly unlikely you’re “hiding behind” OCD — that’s the OCD talking! And if you do act on “discovering the truth,” what then? Are you going to sit there and be proud of yourself and happy? Or are you going to be even more afraid and anxious that it was, in fact, not the truth at all. I believe the case is the latter.

Anon17

Date posted: 2y

@timurbsahin Thank you so much! This makes me feel a little better. Im so sorry you’re going through this as well but I’m glad that I’m not alone. And for me it’s so hard to even think do i really want to kill others because then i actually stop and my brain starts going well what if you really do? And it’s so scary. And i find nighttime to be an extreme trigger for me to because it always seems like scary things happen in the dark.

mamabear22

Date posted: 2y

Yes! I haven’t eaten food because I’m sick to my stomach. I do agree everything is a trigger right now. I’m haunted in my brain it’s exhausted

lonelytype

Date posted: 22w

Criminal shows/Horror movies

does anyone else get really triggered when watching stuff to do with serial killers, p3dos, r@pists etc. I literally start to compare myself and check to see if i share any qualities with them. Ita really scary cause i really like this show Criminal minds, and i absolutely adore the characters, but its hard watching something i like cause of all the g0re and stuff. Not to mention all the thoughts that are convincing me i like the horrible stuff. Someone tell me if tou relate..

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moon0270

Date posted: 20w

Trigger

Idk anymore it feels like being on here is a trigger. Every time I see a minor post on the app, my intrusive thoughts go haywire and then my brain says maybe you should comment something inappropriate and i literally don't wanna fucking do that. It's the last thing I want to do. And now im scared that I commented something crude on someone's post. obviously, when I went to check there was nothing now my brain is saying "you commented and then deleted". I want to think it's something I wouldn't do, but why are the images in my head so real. Children should be safe. I feel like I need to be locked away. Someone please help me.

Jinxx.4444

Date posted: 16w

Triggers

My boyfriend keeps triggering my intrusive thoughts on purpose to mess with me. I've explained how bad they are to him before but i guess he just doesn't get it. He finds it funny when I have such a visceral reaction to him reminding me of them. I hope it doesn't sound too silly but body horror really freaks me out and this one image haunts me so bad when I remember it and he knows that, I trusted him with that knowledge but he loves to just yell out what it is to mess with my head. Now it'll flow in and out of my head for days and I'm gonna have trouble sleeping tonight. Usually distraction works but this one is particularly strong. Does anyone have any good coping skills or tips for going to sleep when it keeps haunting you?

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