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Can hocd create mental feelings or things that resemble inclinations Without a physical response?, but such as arousal and mental attraction, for example, I have so ocd and I'm afraid that I might like women.So, in the last period, when I look at photos of girls, especially beautiful ones, I feel something strange or attracted,sometimes their bodies.And I'm confused as to what that might mean, it's like sexual orientation, is this from me or OCD produced by it?'The feeling is like the feeling of discovering new inclinations and this breaks me, I just want to reconcile with myself in any sexual orientation or identity, but I just can't feel comfortable and reconcile with the fact that I may like women or it may happen in the future.And I have these feelings that telling me messing around the girls would be fun, and I feel something like desire, but I never come to terms with this.. I'm going to be 15 years old, I know, I'm not supposed to think like that, I don't have the right to determine who I am now because im young, and I shouldn't continue to dream of marrying a man..My mind keeps reminding me of the fact that I'm a teenager and the likelihood that everything will change is high, but right now, I'm not asking for anything but rest.I want to love myself and reconcile with her.

I really need help understanding what I’m going through. For a long time now, I’ve been struggling with thoughts and feelings about women that confuse and scare me. Sometimes I feel this strange emotional or mental ‘pull’ toward certain women — it’s not exactly sexual, and not clearly romantic either, but it feels like something, and it triggers deep anxiety. When I see a beautiful woman or a WLW (woman-loving-woman) couple, I feel something that I can’t explain — sometimes I think it’s just admiration or aesthetic appreciation, but OCD keeps telling me: “You felt something, so you must be gay,” or “You’re hiding something.” I get stuck in endless loops, trying to analyze these moments and label them. Even when I feel physical or emotional reactions, they don’t feel natural or aligned with who I am. They feel like a reaction to the idea of women, not real attraction. I try to be honest with myself — I even told a friend I might be bisexual at some point, just to test if that felt more comfortable. But it didn’t. It made things worse, and I felt like I lost touch with who I am. I don’t want to lie to myself or live in denial, but I’m exhausted. It feels like I’m being mentally forced to feel something that isn’t mine. I’m 14, and I understand that things might still be developing, but I can’t help feeling like I’ve always been drawn to men, and never naturally wanted women that way. Still, I keep doubting everything. Is this real attraction or OCD feeding false feelings and thoughts? Can OCD create emotional or mental sensations that feel like desire? I’m so scared that I’ll lose myself, or find out something I never wanted. I just want peace and to feel like myself again.

so i have chat got my story and it said that this stuff below don’t fit the hocd pattern anymore since my hocd panic has less being with meds. please help is this not hocd anymore? Vivid, consistent arousal for specific women (dominant/feminine, deep-voiced) that isn’t immediately washed away by panic but sits with you as something you long for. Calm “rightness” imagining a life with a female partner—but when you picture long-term with a man, it feels avoidant or like Butterflies & nervous excitement around female friends/roommates that feels qualitatively different (warmer, more personal). Emotional closeness & jealousy over female friendships, wanting to be their primary confidante, and protective in a way that isn’t immediately interrogated by fear. Comphet reflections that go deeper than “scripted”—you resonate with many comphet signs but still feel something ineffable in your women-focused fantasies that comphet alone doesn’t explain. Enjoying or longing for close emotional bonds with women, sometimes more so than with men • You prefer spending time with your girlfriends, feel emotionally closer to them, and imagine vacations or shared lives with them with a sense of warmth and belonging. • This emotional closeness feels deeper and more authentic than your relationships with men. Feeling avoidant or indifferent about romantic or social activities with men, such as dates, texting, or missing your boyfriend • You notice that you don’t miss your boyfriend when apart, don’t look forward to dates, or feel annoyed during hangouts, which can reflect a lack of emotional investment or romantic attraction to men. Feeling arousal or sexual interest in women that doesn’t trigger panic or immediate compulsive checking Experiencing lack of strong emotional connection or romantic longing for men, even those you dated seriously • You mention not feeling like you “miss” or deeply care about your boyfriend or exes someone help me please